Orite folks, I’m off…leaving on a M.A.S plane. …I know when I’ll be back again….I’ll see you folks when I’m back….

Cheerios! LOVE all…

It is pretty much sure already. From 2 weeks, it has become 1 week. Let’s hope this is for the better. Insya Allah…..

I had to document this because it is so weird. I tot I just ask for it how did it happen so fast. It that is to be the sign, it sure is abrupt.

However, may all be well again..hopefully.

I ask for it on 16-Nov, it got executed on 17-Nov, I had a dream in between the 2 days. Then 18-Nov, something strange happen. Seriously, did HE worked it out at such speed. Really scary ok..And today, I kinda feel ok but just shocked. Very, very, veryyyyy shocked.

It things happen for a reason, this better have a very good one. Wanted it so much right? I got what I deserved.

Back at work after an extended weekend packed with family, food (lots of it) and friends. Now I’m just after lunch at work .I think work is going to get pretty, pretty darn busy. But then again there is the thing abt this 2-week long leave which kinda compulsary to clear. Not quite right if you ask me. But since they insist, might as well get on with it.

If work ain’t bz, its not called work, would it? So until I strike it rich, I should learn to shut my trap and do my work, for what I’m paid for.

And I just had a weird dream last night, right abt the time when someone far away was thinking about me. Is that it? Is that the sign? Is that how its going to work out? Can it be that fast?

It is becoming sooooo real that I’m at the point of freaking out here.

Forget that for a while and back to the upcoming weekend.

I’ve a beach party-cum-bbq to attend.

Maybe a game of badminton…maybe only….can’t even get a booking yet.

Then comes the house cleaning and prep it for a function. My little niece is turning a-month-old, Little Laura will be at Jurong West Yippie….The house will be crowded with loved ones, friends, relatives and extended relatives who can’t wait to see Laura, for those who have yet to see her….Food will be in abundant, lots of merry making, and getting to know each other. 

Alhamdullilah, Allah s.w.t makes it all possible.

May HE blessed the baby shower for Laura with much blessings and takes care of the function. Insha Allah…Amin. Amin. Amin…

May HE also shelters and protects my Auntie Norma who is performing a very noble duties in Mekkah – as a nurse in the Hajj Mission and thankfully she gets to perform her Hajj for the 2nd time.  Syukur Alhamdullilah for that.

And I’m still puzzled over my dream last night. It wasn’t anywhere near a “sweet dreams” category.  Dream dream dream….

I dedicate this week to someone so special.

I love you sooooooooo much!!!!!

Love you Monday!

Love you Tuesday!

Love you Wednesday!

Love you Thursday!

Love you Friday!!!

Love you Saturday!

Love you Sunday!

Love you every single day!

Love you yesterday, love you today, love you tomorrow, love you the day after tomorrow, love you, love you,love you,love you,love you,love you,love you…..I will always love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu……

And I……….will…always…LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEe uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!

Have I love you enough?

Love is never enough….

For a good reason, I think I need a breakaway from those “clowns” in what I called the “The Circus of My Life”. My nerves are about to explode each time I step into the ring. I think the acts are getting a bit too stale for me to pay the ticket and watch it.  Everyday without fail, there are bound to be a clown or two or MORE…who just believe you me, gets on my freaking nerves.

One clown just did something stupid, thanks to d’clown now I might have just messed up something. Isn’t that wonderful? You don’t call them clowns for nothing, right? So here we go, I’ll find out tomorrow if its going to be a total screwed or not. And probably since I can’t beat them, joining them would be a better alternative. Under the bo-pian act, we play along….

Goodness gracious me….

And so my niece was born 22 October 2009 @ 6:36am. Laura, its just Laura. I love u my sweet tiny lil’ niece. Muacks!

The direction I was searching for only points to one direction. THAT direction.
I think I just made 2 life-changing decisions during the past 8.5hours….
Decision made…now must I execute…

What if she had stopped when she had that bad fall? She might not met all those people she met, I wouldn’t hear those wonderful stories from her, I wouldn’t be there in the first place.

She believed and she persevered. She was persistent. She did reached the end of her rope, tie a knot and hang on. That tipping point that is the break-through of it all…The storm passes, she wins and live to tell me the story.

Why so? Because HE wants to tell me something. And I believe HE just did, through her. I so believe in HIM, and how HE has open my eyes and heart to see it all so clearly. It is so amazing how HE does it. Truly AMAZING….beyond words. I just can’t describe it. I plan to write a long story.

I believe my turn has come. I should rise and fall just the same way I literrally fall down all too many a times, and all I need to do, is to pick myself up and clean the dirt off of me. Keep walking. Its ok to fall down, its just not OK to stay down and cry for help. Get up, dust the dirt and walk. You never know what’s ahead of you. I mean it literally and figuratively.

10 years later, I don’t wanna ask myself why I didn’t try. I’m only ankle deep now. The challenges are ahead. Let ride the storm!!!! Wohooooooo!!!

Looking back at my Ramadhan 1430H pledges, here’s a re-cap.

1. I must do my best to perform my Solat Fardhu 5 times a day without slacking, from this Ramadhan onwards. (I had been slacking at times, have to admit lorr) - checked
2. I must do my best to achieve at least 5 nights of terawih (being realistic here ok, I could do more if time permits). I didn’t get even one last year, which is BAD.- checked, sort of
3. Do more charity, which comes in many form, not just by dropping money in the box eh.- checked

Alhamdullillah, it was a special Ramadhan personally for me unlike any other. I kept saying it to everybody because this year it is so significant for me.

Syawal, so far, is also different. Special this year. Each time I seek forgiveness, I felt this ’sayu’ (very very sad) feeling inside of me but ALWAYS try very much not to shed any tears. The words that my mum’s friend said, touched my heart so much, my eyes got teary but I wanna be tough. So I just bow my head low and blink crazily to flush it away. I just cried at home watching the news when they show the visuals of the earthquake victims in Sumatra. God helps them. Especially so, when you got a whole lot of audience watching. We’ve been like a family. She’s been like a mother to me. We’ve had fun together, holiday together, sadness together, eat together. We’ve gone through loads together and I was so welcomed in the family. Feels good to have more than one brothers and sisters. Well I’m the only daughter and I only got one brother. Now I gained another sister and soon a niece due to see the world in Nov.  You only realized how much you have when you sit and ponder, after such a touching moment. Oh how grateful I am to HIM.

Feels great to have such a big family. My family is big enough and I’m always thankful for the happiness within in. Despite some glitches, but that’s normal in family life. We are far from perfect but we sure are perfect for each other. And I learnt tolerance is important in a family life.

How can I not be greatful for the blessing that ALLAH s.w.t has bestowed upon me. I’m eternally greatful to HIM for the family that I was born into, a family that I was welcomed into, the quality of friendship I have with my friends I’ve known for many years, and some are newly made, of coz. They have made me who I am today. I’m so grateful to all my friends for being there for me. How this Syawal made me realized my life is far from stale. Its such a blessed one!! Alhamdullillah….

Insya Allah, we shall grow together in good times and bad times. May we always be under his umbrella of protection and may HE always show us the light to HIS way so we have all that we need in life and in death. Ameen! Insya Allah…..

You only realized it when you sit and reflect on your life…