I’m lovin’ in

I dedicate this week to someone so special.

I love you sooooooooo much!!!!!

Love you Monday!

Love you Tuesday!

Love you Wednesday!

Love you Thursday!

Love you Friday!!!

Love you Saturday!

Love you Sunday!

Love you every single day!

Love you yesterday, love you today, love you tomorrow, love you the day after tomorrow, love you, love you,love you,love you,love you,love you,love you…..I will always love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu……

And I……….will…always…LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEe uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!

Have I love you enough?

Love is never enough….

 

Exhausted, tired & sick …

For a good reason, I think I need a breakaway from those “clowns” in what I called the “The Circus of My Life”. My nerves are about to explode each time I step into the ring. I think the acts are getting a bit too stale for me to pay the ticket and watch it.  Everyday without fail, there are bound to be a clown or two or MORE…who just believe you me, gets on my freaking nerves.

One clown just did something stupid, thanks to d’clown now I might have just messed up something. Isn’t that wonderful? You don’t call them clowns for nothing, right? So here we go, I’ll find out tomorrow if its going to be a total screwed or not. And probably since I can’t beat them, joining them would be a better alternative. Under the bo-pian act, we play along….

Goodness gracious me….

 

The direction I was searching for only points to one direction. THAT direction.
I think I just made 2 life-changing decisions during the past 8.5hours….
Decision made…now must I execute…

 

Persistence…Perserverance…

What if she had stopped when she had that bad fall? She might not met all those people she met, I wouldn’t hear those wonderful stories from her, I wouldn’t be there in the first place.

She believed and she persevered. She was persistent. She did reached the end of her rope, tie a knot and hang on. That tipping point that is the break-through of it all…The storm passes, she wins and live to tell me the story.

Why so? Because HE wants to tell me something. And I believe HE just did, through her. I so believe in HIM, and how HE has open my eyes and heart to see it all so clearly. It is so amazing how HE does it. Truly AMAZING….beyond words. I just can’t describe it. I plan to write a long story.

I believe my turn has come. I should rise and fall just the same way I literrally fall down all too many a times, and all I need to do, is to pick myself up and clean the dirt off of me. Keep walking. Its ok to fall down, its just not OK to stay down and cry for help. Get up, dust the dirt and walk. You never know what’s ahead of you. I mean it literally and figuratively.

10 years later, I don’t wanna ask myself why I didn’t try. I’m only ankle deep now. The challenges are ahead. Let ride the storm!!!! Wohooooooo!!!

 

This is it! Step 1-Done!

Next…..

 

A fresh look for the blog, still green-based. Will do my best to make the entries as refreshing as the new theme. 

I had a blast ytd nite. My simple plan got complicated, as usual. My road trip after work begins from Commonwealth to Tampines to Orchard, then Woodlands to Fort Road and back to Jurong. By doing that, I passed by ECP twice & PIE twice: 2/10 worth of petrol gone. The fun I had: Priceless!!!! See why I should get a Taxi License next year. Hehehe…

Nenek cook an impromptu feast for us. Simple but being us, we created havoc while breaking our fast with Cik Norma. Had a good laugh with the old folks.

Today more errands to run before raya comes on Sunday. After raya, its back to work and more work. But I think Judy gonna make me shed few pounds over jogging, swimming and squashing. Been a while….but gonna pick it up again soon.

Got couple of lessons in Oct, holiday plans for Nov, and what’s up in December??  Don’t know yet. Then when the new year begins, it would be a fresh start to my dream…Muahahahhhaha…..this year really goes by fast….

Ok another hour before I can gracefully take my leave

 

Don’t tell me its URGENT!

There are B1 and B2. If its not B1, its B2 and vice versa, that gives me the High BP. Day by day, they drives to my wits. Don’t make me do what I did 2.5 years ago!!! I’m almost at it already!! And just need a last kick in the ass to make me do what I want to do.

Is this almost burnout stage or just another month of PMS? Gosh! Either way I’m not enjoying any of it. This is madness.

BUT THEN ORRRR…..whatever I’m doing now is pretty much what i’ll do, if I decide to do what I plan to do. Get it? NO? Well, you’re not suppose to anyway…hahahha…

But at least, I’m not doing it for anyone but ME! I can only be mad at myself. That wasn’t so bad. This is becoming a routine and I’m not liking it one bit. Complaining doesn’t and WILL NOT HELP. Positive thinking will but it might not last long. So what the permanent solution here? For me to know, already know actually. For you all to not be kepo.

I need to go get rid of the cravings of something first. Probably holding myself back won’t do much good right now. So let’s just do it lah.

Do it! Do it! Do it! Maybe tonight lah…must do already…tonight have to have tooooooooooooooooooooo

Now must do something URGENT! Who say URGENT? Everything also urgent what….so this one must be SUPER SUPER SUPERRR URGENT! WTH!

 

Aku Tak Mau Sendiri

Sejak ia pergi dari hidupku
Ku merasa sepi
Dia tinggalkan ku sendiri disini
Tanpa satu yang pasti

Aku tak tahu harus bagaimana
Aku merasa tiada berkawan
Selain diriMU
Selain cintaMU

Chorus:
Kirim aku malaikatMU
Biar jadi kawan hidupku
Dan tunjukkan jalan yang memang
KAU pilihkan untukku
Kirim aku malaikatMU
Karena ku sepi berada disini
Dan didunia ini aku tak mau sendiri

Tanpa terasa kuteteskan air mata ini
Yang tiada berhenti mengiringi
Kisah dihati

Aku tak tahu harus bagaimana
Aku merasa tiada berkawan
Selain dirimu
Selain cintamu

Chorus 2x

Jude, this one i dunno how to translate yet, title means “I don’t want to be alone”

 

Dedicated to my big jie, JUDE, because she is a ”chin-chong” (i.e. Chinese) person who dun understand written Malay *ROFL* We only teach each other how to curse in our different languages but not exactly the language itself…hahaha….wat the heck right? At least we will know when ppl curse us in a different language

Here goes…..

Aku merasa ada yang hilang
(I felt something is missing)

Tanpa tahu apa yang sudah aku temukan
(Without knowing what I have found)

Aku merasa menemukan
(I felt I’ve found)

Tanpa tahu apa yang aku cari
(Without knowing what I was looking for)

Dan aku seperti masih mencari
(And it is as though I’m still searching)

Tanpa tahu apa yang sudah hilang
(Without knowing what I have lost)

Another one…..

Seseorang yang kita fikir adalah milik kita
(Someone whom we thought belongs to us)

Ternyata bukan benar-benar milik kita
(In reality isn’t really ours)

Kita memiliki hatinya, tubuhnya, dan cintanya,
(We may have their heart, their body and their love)

Tapi kita tidak akan pernah memiliki jalan hidupnya
(But we will never have their destiny)

 

Aku merasa ada yang hilang
Tanpa tahu apa yang sudah aku temukan
Aku merasa menemukan
Tanpa tahu apa yang aku cari
Dan aku seperti masih mencari
Tanpa tahu apa yang sudah hilang

Seseorang yang kita fikir adalah milik kita
Ternyata bukan benar-benar milik kita
Kita memiliki hatinya, tubuhnya, dan cintanya,
Tapi kita tidak akan pernah memiliki jalan hidupnya…