To all the men in my life…..

I love kids for they are innocent, naive and smart, all at the same time.

They ask questions that adults don’t usually ask or simply overlooked. I encountered that moment a couple of months back. Didn’t give it much thought until today. Though I wish the same question come from someone else….hehehe… But then again, if they do, I probably reacted differently. Strange but maybe coz kids asked out of pure innocence rather than being a busybody like some adults doo.

But it did strike me as to WHY such question.  They must have either seen a lot of sinetrons or they ever heard the adults talking abt it. It all comes back to the adults…Their PARENTS, like all our parents, they are flawed, contradicting but yet always forgivable. For we are none other than their kids. Kids have such inquisitve minds. I wish I’m forever a kids. My entire life I’m surrounded by kids.

Growing up at 406 Clementi, I suddenly recalled that I’m the only girl. I was surrounded by abang, abg amy, abg sani, and I do recall this 2 good-looking boy siblings living at the other end of the corridor. Don’t quite recall their names. But basically I’m surrounded by boys. I have a toy car which required me to paddle. Not those electrical/chargable car kids have nowadays. That’s vague how I still have that bit of memory of my childhood days outside the corridors of Blk 406. I also recalled Papa always brings me swimming at Clementi swimming pool. Papa actually tried to teach me how to swim, with my legs splashing all over the place, I wouldn’t say it is very much a success. Then I have those photos of the younger Yai (granpa) carrying me in his arms. Him and nenek showered me with much love and toys and loads of cash (tats during my school days). I think being a very young kid I was NEVER running out of cash. Bringing $50 at primary school level for some could be rare. But for me its a monthly affair, because Yai’s pay day usually means I’m richer. I never save the $$$ anyway, I’ll spend and spend. And I’ll get more everytime. And pls ok, that’s NOT why I love him. I love them ALL because they gave me unconditional love. 

Growing even older at Bukit Batok blk 248. I did have some girl friends but I’d prefer the guys because they are, what I called “no-fuss and no-frills”. Simple, just play, have fun, tired already, go home and eat…play some more..hahahha…I remember those guys. Anak cik yassin, cik ahmad tingkat 4, cik rosli, those are the closest. There are more. Mostly boys. each family has at least one girls who are either too old or too young to play with me. And because I’m probably a PUSH-OVER even at such young age, the boys doesn’t really mind having me around. Hari Raya would mean Papa bring us both to Bukit Timah shopping centre to buy clothes..Orchard is a luxury once a while when we follow Cik Norma. Swensens & McDonalds was also a luxury. I remember lots of “my-first”, like first McDonald visit was with Yai at Bukit Batok. Yai bought me a Cheeseburger Happy Meal. I must have been the happiest grand-daughter in Bukit Batok, maybe. I remember looking at his face after leaving the queue with my Happy Meal box. So happy & grateful!!  My first MRT trip from Bukit Batok back then was with Papa. It was a few days after the MRT was in operations. Those are the prominent ones i recalled until today.

My point is,  my life has always been around boys, men who are always there to protect me. Kinda…even now I have close buds who are men *can’t be boys right?*

BUT STRANGELY I CAN’T GET A BOYFRIEND..*ROFL* Really strange. I mean REALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLYYYYYYYYYYYY…. I never actually give up and sworn myself to singlehood. I don’t know the meaning of give up in some matters, u see. But I already put the matter to rest coz its not a topic that can be force nor plan. I’m just glad being single also, for many reasons actually. So being on the brighter side of things, I believe it is not yet my time to find “Mr Husband”. So ok lah…I can live with that, FOR NOW.  Just for now ya.

This entry, I talked abt nothing else but men. Father, Brother, Granpa and other men. This is partly to commemorate Fathers Day on 21 June. My mini-bbq just turn into somewhat a big event with abt 60 pax. Hawa said its like my engagement party (amin! amin!) *LOL*

So…

To Papa whose garang-ness (fierce-ness) must have put me under control, and tamed and obedient , else I might just go wild coz I’m not afraid of the rest of them, I get pampered by the rest, even my aunties & uncles. Happy Father’s Day Papa!

To Yai, even though you are my super loveable granpa, you’ve been and always will be like a father to me also. I will never forget each day you fetch me and waited for me - after school, after tuition, after ngaji, send me to religious class. basically everywhere, you are always there for me. Selamat Hari Bapa!

To Abang, father-to-be-in-Nov, need not say much. The fella who finished my milk-bottle filled with Rose Syrup or Milo back then when we were kids. Until today, you have the habit of taking sips from my Nescafe/MILO/COKE, turning off the light when I shower and make me scream like mad woman….haha..Still, I’m sure you will be a good, responsible and loving father to your kid coz of your patience in dealing with issues. Insya Allah. Amin.

To my late Atuk, I can only gift a gift of Al-Fatehah, may your soul rest among those who are dear to HIM. Amin. Insya Allah.

Happy Fathers Day to All the Fathers out there…my uncles wherever you are, the fathers of my closest friends. And all the fathers in the world. I wish you all a Happy Fathers Day!

Time to go home! Preparation for BBQ starts yesterday. *ROFL*

The day Mak Lang went for test drive….

I went shopping….for CARS! It is more tiring then shopping for shoes, for clothes…even looking for food is easier..i tell u! But then again ..for someone like me who ain’t tat fussy…i settled for something simple! Like the following..but no lah…not yet cash in on it yet…Just dreaming first. Bringing the Madam for a test drive first…see if she’s ok …then I re-check my financial status *just in case, I go broke in the next few mths*. Only then will I decide…but in brief I would comfortably need abt $800 per mth for many years to come, just for this new baby. But I want mine in white if I REALLY get it. And if indeed I did, comes the nightmare of ROADTAX, ERP GANTR-IES, CASH CARD, FUEL, INSURANCE, PARKING FEES, SAMAN (where applicable)…yada yada yada yada….and I promise a friend I’m picking ‘em up when he return from overseas *in my new car, if I get it*

And just got the GOOD news, the current Jazz I”m drving no longer sound like I”m flying in plane….coz bro forked out $400 odd to fix the WHEEL Bearing *yet another nightmare*….so I can drive and be driven comfortably, unlike a few months ago. Some things $$ CAN buy

I finally test drive this baby along West Coast Highway…i love it…but yet to decide …mcm mana ni ..hati sudah cinta…pocket pulak ada skit half-hearted ni…sayangnya $$ aku…tapi kereta ni lawa..kan kan kan…???

For now…just enjoy the blog first..until I get it..or maybe I won’t ..coz i’m thrifty YA RITE?

TGI-Saturday!

Qoute of the day, “I know where I stand, I remember where I fall” – Diana E A *tats me*

A conversation with a dear friend not long ago, leads me the the qoute above. It means a lot to me. Kih! Kih! Kih!

So how do I spent my precious Saturday? Catch a movie! Duyung – Malay Movie @ Causeway Point with the Madam It was soooo crowded because the cast of Duyung, Maya Karin was in town with Yusry KRU (the tauke wayang). Caught a glimpse of them both, Maya was nice and neat with her pony tail. Yusry with his cap and clean cut. Really nice! Since my movie was abt to start, we didn’t stay long. And partly because the crowd control-LER, was really doing a good job by asking ppl to stay as far as possible and no photo taking. They started flashing torchlight so that it spoilt your shots. Good idea! But I’m already turned-off by them that I grab my snacks and settled in my seats. But then again, I was satisfied as Madam did saw Maya She said ok lah..not tat superb afterall haahhaa….my mum!ish ish ish…I still think she’s beautiful though. And simple je dia…i like her way of dressing. tak de lah elegant mana..but yet neat!

So we had a good time munching and watching movie. Movie ends! We Exit! Guess what? The guys from Persada Seni pulled one makcik and wanted to interview her, then another cameraman, pulled me and my mum also to one side and said the same thing. So I was like shocked and caught unprepared. I was pushing the load to my mum, but they said, we one 2 person, 1 by 1. So we wait…mum goes first…she was nervous..obviously…bothered that her hair was in a mess …I said “you look fine”hahaha…my turn,  barely few minutes it was over. The interviewer’s respond to my answers was, “I like your answer” hahahaha…..spontaneous enough that he liked it….but then again, knowing all this, I might get editted OUT of the clips and not even appear in Persada Seni but then again, I could be wrong We’ll wait and see

So Madam and me carry on shopping and eating….last stop was Ya Kun Toast at Boon Lay MRT before we head on home…

Here I am chatting my way into the early Sunday morning, while listening to Duyung soundtrack..

21 March 08, Friday – The Engagement Day

The Engagement Ring & A Fruit Hamper *I made this*

The engagement went smoothly. Very simple affair. We had a simple meal also thanks to the bride-to-be family, we had mee goreng, kuih dada, murtabak, puffs, and fruits for desserts ….and her mum made superb teh-tarik *my fav*. Those are my uncle and 2 close family friends being the wakil of The General. And that is Kak Yana’s granpa. Though we had quite a simple yet filling spread. After that we went for yet another round of treat *I insist*, first was Pagi Sore but unfortunately it was closed due to the Public Holiday….so we headed to Sakura International Buffet. I was hungry, ma quite alright, Abang being the recently crowned ‘Tunang Orang’ wasn’t hungry nor full. I was leaning on him being the manja sister while we sat at the restaurant and guess what he said… “Jgn buat mcm ni, aku tunang orang tau”. *translation – “Don’t be like this, I’m someone’s fiance“…I was like ‘hello!!! U R MY BROTHER..*eyes rolling*’…I can do it even if you are “laki orang” *translation-someone’s husband’*…duh!!! That’s my bro!…But all jokingly lah …of coz.

For $24++ per person, Sakura International sure have quite a spread but it was inclined somehow towards Japanese food like sushi and unagi *not a fan of neither*

 

UNAGI *very fishy smell and not quite fancy it*

Oyster *again, not my favourite*

And there a loads more which I’d rather load in Multiply coz i’m running out of patience loading image by image.

That’s about as much I do on Friday. One engagement is one too many

22 March 2008 – Saturday

Oh boy! I spent my time in town shopping around…but I did attempt to catch Pak Lang’s show at Spore Botanic Gardens. …after a bit of misadventure, yes….I missed it….so we decided to just hang out at Marina Square till close to midnite and take loads of pictures….it did get bored after a while …and Abang have to ‘bubble me’ at the last minutes. Lets just say my Saturday can be spent in a more useful manner. I probably should attempt to learn PLANNING….*sigh* ahahha

This is actually the WRONG carpark. But I paid $0.54 still.

We found the place…saw it on the direction board i.e. Shaw Foundation Symphony Stage…

*if i did managed to get there in time, I wonder how I would walk back in the dark*

but an attempt to walk the path was better not done ..coz almost maghrib time..and I don’t fancy walking in the woods at that timing..so we U-TURN, get in the car and tried the nearer carpark…but so many policemen telling us the carpark is FULL…so we tried yet again..but by the time we went round and round, Pak Lang’s slot was over….so we decided to proceed with our initial plan…and that’s the misadventure.

 *looking farrrrrrrrrrrr* – actually, I’m just tired with all the walking….

*i think one of the best shot, no idea where the spark of light came from*

One of the many many photos I took last Saturday….

Why is there suddenly influx of photo….? BECAUSEEEEeeeeee…..I BOUGHT A NEW DIGITAL CAMERA…….

Presenting my new toy….NIKON COOLPIX S510….

For just SGD399, I get all the following:

The Nikon Coolpix S510
2 x Kingston 2GB SD Card

Mini Tripod

Camera Cover

1 box of HP PhotoSmart PhotoPaper

1 HP PhotoSmart Photo Printer *yes, PRINTER!!!*

All from the nearby Harvey Norman….And judy, no..no….judy, it wasn’t an Implusive Buying..i think through for a whole night…and I guess for $400, the camera serves its purpose and my needs Thanks for holding me back from buying it the night before at Great World Best Denki….

Ok loads of other photos will be fed to my multiply..soon….

Back to the dungeon *work* tomorrow but no lah..it wasn’t so bad….Thanks to work I can get my pay and buy camera hhihihi..and thanks my dearest MAMA for paying the 50% So technically, I paid only $200 for the loads of devices…..And I picked Abang’s engagement day to buy it.

Ok nite nite everyone…

btw, P.Ramlee the musical is coming to Singapore in MAY 2008.

Don’t forget to catch it at the Esplanade

After Ryan, who is almost 4 years old now, mama now is the nanny of Racheal, Ryan’s almost-8-mths old baby sister. Recently, we went shopping at Kiddy Palace to buy some baby booties for Racheal. It is common to buy such things right coz the baby’s feet tend to get cold. Me buy those stuff. But my dear friend Kiera, actually made those by knitting them.

See here…so cute….I can’t help but to blog abt it. Cute right? Well I like babies and all things related to it

Knitted material is actually thicker than the one I got from Kiddy Palace. Different colour some more.And this is Racheal in her baby cot, smiling at me of coz….the hair seems to take a looooong time to grow.

Ok tonight’s plan is Movie – Spiderwick Chronicles

Discounted ticket $9.50 $5.00 pax. Since its cheaper, I bought 4 , Jude bought 2. Total of 6 for me, jude, pak lang, elf, eve, and linda.

Hope its a good movie!!!

Tomorrow is busy day, with agenda that includes Airport, Work, Tepak Sirih, Gram’s place…then wat else…….then I’m going for a spinning around….

Sunday lagi happening i think…..

Toddle doo for now…..

Its been not so great a week. My mind is clouded by a million and one thing. To top it all up, my pet rabbit, Dino, died on Sunday. Today, a friend just have to make my day but saying some shitty stuffs. There are millions ways to say hi if u wanna chat with someone…and that way ain’t the way i fancy. Call me petty or cranky or watever shit…but keep your remarks to yourself…i don’t need them – THANK YOU!

I’m suppose to call somebody but I haven’t got the mood for it. I hate this shitty feeling. Bothers me…and it really shows it when I was out yesterday, just couldn’t smile like i usually do…even the food can’t keep me smiling…more like forcing it….

I hope this network thingy resolve and i get to go airport tonite…i’d prefer to hang out there on my own for a while…or should i go to tampines first to meet the rest…a bit of quiet time now would be nice. But then again, airport will be flooded with human crowded…possibly meeting some familiar faces this time of the year where all the jemaah going to perform the pilgrimage. But I already give my to-do-list to cik ma for some good prayers

So far, its really a “Shitty Shitty Bang Bang” Day! I’m going to turn it around….to make it a happier day…

I need some Positive Energy….maybe these words might help.

“Any fact facing us is not as important as our attitude toward it, for
that determines our success or failure.”
Norman Vincent Peale
1898-1993, Author of “The Power of Positive Thinking”

“You can conquer almost any fear if you will only make up your mind to
do so. For remember, fear doesn’t exist anywhere except in the mind.”

Dale Carnegie
1888-1955, Speaker and Author

“You will never be happier than you expect. To change your happiness,
change your expectation.”

Bette Davis
1908-1989, Oscar Award-Winning Actress

Its just a bad day…

The 8th present I received during office Christmas Gift Exchange. What does such things symbolizes? Looks like something good ya?

A calendar I got, infact the entire office got from Andrew.

The topic on relationships, love, marriage and courting and dating and all things abt love seems to be all over me lately. And its really freaking me out and beginning to piss me off. And I’m in a foul mood yesterday…why so? I just would say, it’s one of those bad days. Though I’m not really sure if those topics contribute to my tensed behaviour. I’m partly ok ..partly not. Probably 2008 is a better year. Let’s just look forward to that.

I had hell of a fun last week but this week is pretty sucky, its the total contrast…To begin with, the dress I found doesn’t fits me nicely..its little bit tight…just a lil’ bit. Otherwise I would have settled for it. Probably coz its cheap after the 70% off. Then the upgrade of 10mbps from Singnet which I’m so keen on but not eligible coz still tied to the one year of contract period. Chg Mgmt keep bouncing back thanks to SS who is so lor-soh. And another project which I dunno head..dunno tail and got Mr K just throw the balls on my court and expect me to know wats going on and complete it by next Friday…Damn! And for every automated job that failed in a day, I can hear my name being mentioned to figure it out especially from one particular team. And I’m getting pretty sick of that as well. Come on..do I have the word ‘Helpdesk’ tattooed on my forehead. The weather yesteday was as gloomy as my mood. But I had my fair share of a good trash out session. So much for trying to be a good friend and a good listener…i was also telling my stories….wat are friends for, if not to listen to each other’s problem and sorrow and not forgetting JOY. Having coffee at 7.30pm was a incredibly BAD IDEA, and dinner at 11pm was worst. I stayed up to almost 3:00AM and eventually drift away to slumberland…

Tomorrow will always be a better day….it must be…my new friend said so.

 

“Don’t hold your life, move on”, she said, for a moment, my world stop spinning…..my heart stop beating…

Indeed!…it has been a hell of a week, as I had mentioned in my earlier post. Just had a pretty heavy moderate lunch. And the outcome is pretty bad. I’m so SLEEEEEPY now….need to slow the pace down a little but then come Wednesday, colleague going on long leave again….its me on my own all over again. And there is Christmas party tmr lunch time, then there’s the Volunteer Dinner at ORQ on Wednesday night….so much food to even try to resist. So what to do, EAT Lor!!!

I just made tea…hopefully I get a little boost out of it coz I can barely open my eyes now *yawn*

And its only 3pm only…………..Zzzzzzzzzzz

In responds to Pak Lang’s comment, I have already explained myself to him ‘OFFLINE’. It is still Our Song i.e mine and you ok my dear buddy :) but I want Jude to know it also ok coz the meaning is deep. And for that, she is now official the new non-Malay speaking Anuar Zain fan *Enjoy the CD jude! Glad u love the songs*

So weekend is almost over. But it was heck of weekend I would say. Most of the days, I had dinner out. That is meaning to say, I go out most nights. But most eventful was Friday, Sat, Sun.

Friday was the bachelorette dinner for Shanon. Just me, shanon and Jude for a nice quiet dinner at Tiffany@Furama City Centre Hotel. Food was reasonable enough coz mainly I was very hungry. We had multiple rounds of good food, coffee and not forgetting my view was pretty nice also. I meant the guy sitting across the room with a bunch of middle age men. Some sort of dept gathering, I figured. But those uncles have to block my views half way through dinner time. So I stuffed myself silly and wrap it up with coffees. Then, we had one bachelor joined us, Pak Lang. He just knocked off work for the day. So the plan was to head home or share a cab out of convenient. But as always….knowing us, we sure have to do a detour – all the way to Boat Quay. Shanon managed to get a cab pretty quick earlier on. So Pak Lang was suggesting this place called Clinic. Being me, I’m totally clueless as to where it was. But I had the ‘green light’ to be out late. So I take every opportunity like that with open arms coz I rarely gets them.

So we walked and walked and walked, eventually there it was. CLINIC!!! I tell ya…it really is a freaking CLINIC setup. Initially I tot it was pronounced Clinic or maybe Clinique or whichever funky way such names are spelt. But facing me was the typical, Old Changi Hospital setup, with so many wheelchairs in replaced of the usuals stools. Those aluminium table, typical of a hospital and some sort of hospital beds in replace of comfy sofas. I had my doubts of where the wheelchairs come from, but Jude said they must have ordered it in bulk. Coz I imagine they probably recycled those from Old Changi Hospital hahahah!

  

Irregardless, we settled down. One wheelchair each. We had orange juice but Jude had one of those drinks they served in a drip, its called Sex on a Drip or something like tat. I told jude, for the price u are paying, drip it all the way babe!!! She seems to have a hard time finishing that coz imagine it goes drop by drop. The part I love most about that night was of coz the man in skirts ahhaha….A bunch of Scottish musicians, especially the Bassists. I just love Scottish music, the flute part. All of their song sounds like a happy song. The night was great..a new experience, a new place…a bunch of old gang spending quality time together….ahahahah….and dinner with shanon was simple fabulous. Don’t worry to much abt the wedding dinner ok..we’ll be right beside you to collect the Red Packets *evil grin*

So we head home by sharing a cab. Thanks to my ‘Brothers and Sisters‘ for dropping me off safely home *Thank U!!!!* But the Brother Pak Lang said, “We not suppose to do this often”….but that statement is VOID BECAUSE we did worse the night after. Here’s what happen…

Saturday was a day at the SPA day with the Sister Jude. I drove in the rented Suzuki Swift for my dental appt. There I met Jude for bfast and headed to Shangri-la Rasa Sentosa for our SPA treatment. Shall not elaborate on the spa, just to note that, there wasn’t any ‘specials’ for the day =)

  

Enough of being like a ‘pancake’, we were famished by end of the spa thingy. Had our very heavy dinner+lunch at Breeks Harbour Front, then DECAF Cappuccino at Starbucks *later realized shouldn’t have drank DECAF*. It is very typical for us to move from one food outlet to another *that explains the excess weight*

The brothers called for karaoke session. We planned to have it next Friday but it seems those bunch of khakis just can’t live without us ladies *eyes rolling* Party World Orchard for a rollin’ good time. Half way through I’m close to collapsing on the KTV Sofa. I was darnnnnnnnnnnn sleeppppppppyyyy but those fellas kept singing and singing and me also TRY to sing…but it was heck of atime in there. The singing, dancing…salsa…candid camera Supper at Jln Kayu before Pak Lang drop everybody home. Had my shower and basically fainted almost immediately. Why I said last nite was worst, coz we only got home close to 4AM. I hardly do such thing except when the other BIG BROTHER is in town. But last nite was an exception, coz I was granted ‘unlimited happy hour’ by the Jedi Master aka Nenek ku yang tersayang. Thanks for the flexibility.

To thank her for the ‘license’ she issued me, I be the filial grand-daughter, daughter, niece, cousin today at my aunt’s kenduri…I helped Hikmah (our new domestic helper) with the chores. Do watever needed to make the function a perfect one. At the end of the day, I knew I did a good job coz one of my uncle’s fren said to me, “Thank you so much to you, I just love your hospitality, you are really good”…Wasn’t expecting that, but its not uncommon for him to say tat. I was just doing what needs to be done…infact I made every of the young ones helped out coz its my aunt’s (the host) kenduri doa selamat before she perform her pilgrimage at the same time, performing her duties with the Singapore Medical Team accompanying the Jemaah Haji of 2007. 

The weekend ended well, here I am bloggin abt it all while dear cousin Hawa is on my bed accompanying me I hope the weekday is gonna be as great!

Last but not least, I have to upload these pictures,

BEFORE

AFTER  

That’s it! Good nite…going to bed already!!!

Another weekend approaching

Wednesday, midweek - my schedule is JAM PACKED till year end. But I managed to somehow squeeze a six-days break starting Hari Raya Haji till Christmas. Thanks to the postponement of one of the task I had in hand. But then I might have to forgo going to the 3 weddings on the 3rd week of Dec. But that’s quite alright.

Such a wet day right now, outside is pouring. My initial plan was to head home after work to finish something but doesn’t look like its gonna happen as I’m meeting my dear fren who is supposedly to be on leave. She just can’t sit tight at home. She’s somewhere in AMK now caught in the heavy rain. So my dear, just keep yourself busy and I’ll come rescue you with the 2 PRINCEs later at dinner time But we ain’t coming with horses and carriage ok…Just us on foot.hehehe…

10 Tracks of anuar zain latest songs are looping again and again on my Ipod. I’m wide awake despite only falling asleep at 345am this morning. Not bad at all!

So I’ve got dental appt, spa appt, and kenduri to attend over this weekend. Overall, its really been a bz month, and also a bz year for me. And I’m only a single woman with not tat many commitment, but enough to keep me on my toes.

How would it be IF I have the exact same amount of work load but being married with *imagining*, let say 2 kids? I think it would be hell. But then again….could be heaven also. I’ll never know until later later ya….Ehmm..so in the lovey dovey mood. aahhaha….wat is the matter with me? Must be the weather ya….

Woops! Lightning! Lightning! Thunder! Thunder! Very very wet windows…..anuar zain in the airwave….singing Lelaki Ini…oh my…..perfect!