All this waiting is making me go crazy. Like some kind of unfinished business. Please let me know tomorrow before I go bonkers just thinking about it. It has been almost a week soon.
If this is the best way out, how come it doesn’t come easy AT ALL. I thought everything was all set. I’m so very sure already now, and infact already made that big decision but how come not happening yet.
Strange leh…Please let it be tomorrow. Insya Allah, esok masih ada.Amin.
Why today? Isn’t it suppose to be a blessed Friday. This is one of those crap day where whatever that can go wrong, WILL! Damn it!
Back in 2007, I started this blog just about the time I join the current work place. And today, after seeing a piece of envelope on my desk, and upon opening the letter, then only I realized it had been a very long but quick FIVE years in this place. Got a bit of reward for that 5 years of LONG SERVICE AWARD.
Well, the countdown has begun….
This is gonna be my first posting for year 2012. Apparently according to the MAYANS, end of the world is this year. So why worry. But to pray and hope we go to heaven.
Apart from that sad end-of-the-world story, I’ve been attacked with – Sleepless nights leading to late mornings. The mind is so occupied with major decision makings for myself or for greater good of all, especially my family. But maybe its high time I think for myself. But the inside of me is made up of so many part of others. When I’m faced with such a dilemma over my life’s decision, I quietly wish I’m married to a loving, understanding husband who makes me a housewife and well maybe 3 kids to care for. And no money worries in my head.
*PAUSED* Okay…since that original dream of mine is not happening anytime soon…we move to the real world where I am this single lady working really hard to fulfill i don’t know what dream anymore. Its really nice to have a loving man who I can just cuddle and talk to at times. But what to do…not here yet. So I only got Ola to talk to and wash away my boring stories. But I’m gladly welcoming the soon-to-be twin babies, besides entertaining one Terrible-Twos at home. But she’s still an angel, that lil’ Munchkin, who is my big brother’s first born.
I just wanna say a lil’ prayer….
“Ya Allah, peliharalah zuriat2 Abang di kala dalam kandungan dan apabila mereka lahir kelak agar sempurna sifat zahir dan batinnya. Dan aku mohon kau lindungi Kak Iparku agar selamat mengharungi perjalanan sedang dia mengandungkan zuriat kembar kurniaanMU. Dan peliharalah keluarga kami dari segala yang buruk. Sesungguhnya kami telah banyak pelajari dari kesilapan masa lalu. Dan sentiasa dekatkan diri kami semua padaMU…Sesungguhnya aku bersyukur atas segala kurnia-an dan limpah rezekiMu selama ini. Amin Ya Rabb. “
Well, I guess my prayers are indeed answered. The path have been lay down and I was hinted to walk through it. Let’s see if I have the courage to do so.In time, I will know.
Now, let’s get on with work because I think we have much to complete 
