Mid-December

When was the last time I did something for me? The kinda something which I do/will do without taking anything/anyone into consideration in deciding so and just do it because I want to do it. I’m trying hard to remember. Can I just do something, one thing, for me. I don’t know what or how, don’t know when. But I can’t find that little something I ever did for myself. Everything is always putting somebody/something before myself. And that, according to one friend who once work with me. Even on pay day, I should pay myself first instead of paying any loans/bills/or give anybody else my hard earn money. Well, for someone so smart. He is prospering in life. I wish him well. He’s a nice chap who advise me a lot, cheerful and very honest guy. Met a sweet lady and I suppose he is happily married.

Now, how in the world can I put myself before others when my life revolves around many others. Some times I tell myself to be super selfish and just think about me, myself and I. But cannot. I’m configured this way and I need a major upgrade to make me all fresh and new.

Weekend was jammed pack *wat’s new*. But Monday is such a drag. I’m squeezed for time considering my leave is just around the corner. Suddenly, I’m writing documents as though Friday is my last day at work. And no one is around to back me up. My only pain is that I am going to get phone calls during my break. And without even planning any overseas trip. There is already much to do at home. I don’t know I’m doing it for who though.

May I shouldn’t stress much today and just go home and have a good sleep because I have to start the day really early tomorrow.

I’m yawning away in this draggy Monday afternoon. Use to love documentations but not anymore. Not when there is so much to do so little time and yet I’m blogging just to stay awake. *YAWN*