What if you believe in something so much that you not willing to budge no matter if the weight of the world is on you and everyone else disagree. How?
I have one thought, opinion, wish…i dunno what to call it but I’m not willing to budge from my that one particular believe even if I had to die waiting for it. Too bad lah kan if I really didn’t happen. I don’t even know if I will regret doing it or not. Basically I did much thoughts, its really crazy to still believe in it. But then again, nothing is impossible in this world, unless HE said no. But I’m willing to take that chance. That one chance that might ruin me for good. That’s why I can’t understand myself.
But there other thoughts – not so good ones – that’s been clouding my mind. And that also is driving me insane. Why must that happen? Why must I know that it happened? And why I choose to be ok about it? Why???????????????????????????????????????????????
I’m really falling sick i think. But I don’t want to “+1″ to the H1N1 statistics. The sore throat has lead to body aches and all. How could that even be? Being sick, truly sucks!
I was sickly in KL. I had fun but I know if I’m 100% healthy I would have much more fun. I’m like 70% healthy 30% sick. So I sleep a whole lot. Even when back home, I tried to sleep in early, which I did apparently. Hit the sack by about 11. Tat’s early considering that I can still b out at that hour on some days.
I’m just worried I get the freaking pneumonia thingy, like i did couple of years back….ohhhhh tats bad….i recalled exactly how it all started. And I’m seeing similar symptoms now. Tat was bad, 4 doctors and 1 A&E visit, almost 2 weeks of MC in total before I eventually recovered. Close to being warded. Yikes! Please not during this H1N1 season….pls no no ….
So I’m planning on a “good-girl-week”, which means, I go home straight after work and hit the sack after dinner a tiny bit of tv.
Not sure if I should go to my Family Dr. tonite or not….why am I getting body ache???? I’m feeling the chills this very moment.
And look at the weather, its pouring outside……should have parked outdoor to get free car wash..hehehe…..
Sick sick ..cough cough…..aching everywhere…..oh boy i need my bed…..and blankets…
Back to my conference call…..
