May 2009


Have you found the love of you life? Maybe I have not or rather….I can’t comprehend what it really means by “Love of one’s life”. I know what LIFE is. I now know what LOVE is. But how abt Love of my Life? I figured you will only know it when you’re dead. Coz that’s the end of your life and whoever is the one with you till the end, is the love of your life. Well that’s just to close of that statement. 

But when you’re dead, demised, passed away, gone, watever you wanna call it.  People might think or say out loud at your funeral, “Oh dear, she left behind the love of her life”. In this context, I’m refering to your other half - husband, boyfren, domestic partner. But I also believe that, sometimes, one’s husband is not one’s love of their life. Am I making any sense here? Probably you did found the love of you life but couldn’t have that love. So then came the idea of moving on. This alone is a super duper tough shit to get through. Its like you just had a super heavy meal, and your stomach is all full, you wish you could flush it all out, maybe hoping you had diarrhea. But all you can do is sit at the shit hole, suffering a constipation instead. So there you have it. Its all confusing I’d say.

So I learnt recently at the movie advert, put up by THINKFAMILY.SG that sometimes the love of your life is someone who has got so many imperfections, but somehow this person is perfect for you BECAUSE of those imperfections. It makes a lot of senses that advertisement. Well, when you love someone, trust me, you can really live with it, NO MATTER what. That much I believe. You’ll come to a point of loving till it hurts, literally. Really hurts you that bad, till you cry. All you will do, is wipe away the tears and pray hard, tomorrow will be a better day for both of you. And it can goes on like that for a million years if you really can live that long. At times like that, some might call you Nutz…but some call it Love. Depends on which side of the fence you’re at.

Reminded me of some married ppl I know, who have had flaws of their own, but somehow, once married they compliment each other. They make it work somehow….someway. Some try their very best. Some don’t need to try that hard.  Some tried, failed, try again, and again and again. They are heroes in their own rights, in the battle in finding true love.

Are you one of those who search for true love, one who searches for love of your life? Or did you moved on and settle for someone else? If you did, have you ever wondered probably you are the love of the other person’s life? So it wasn’t really all that bad ya? :P

Maybe, one can eventually settled down with another but have someone else as the love of their life. I’ve seen many of such. But I’m still trying to comprehend and understand such rationale.

However, there are some who still hope to be with the love of their life, that special someone who at one time, stole their heart and resides at that special spot deep in your heart and soul, cannot be de-throned by anyone else or by anything that anyone said.

I guess, those imperfections may be THE most perfect thing for you.

May you find the love of  your life….

I will continue to _____.

But I will stop to _____.

Conclusion, the ____ is now _____.

Mothers’ Day around the corner…a simple family gathering would do me good. Mum tot of eating at Pondok Jawa Timur..probably I should bring her there….ehmmm..with nenek.

Abg & Kakak going on honeymoon to Swiss. I’m gonna miss them loads for the next 2 weeks. Being the good sister, I’m going to send them off. Even took leave just to send them off. How can I not be a good sister.

BTW, I just got back from Jogja…superb holiday back to the kampung. Not mine but still it was a great trip…a lil hiccup was the painful cramp that hit me on my 3rd day there..But was fine after a bottle of ‘tumeric juice’. IT WORKS! ok…no pain AT ALL right after that. I probably should import that whole carton.  Thanks to a dear friend who bought it.

Work is madness…and I’m going crazy. To the extend I told jude to follow me go PUFF. I’m not a smoker, by the way. It must be the crazy chat. I actually just meant go for break jude. relaks..i’m not yet crazy. at least not completely crazy YET.

almost knock off time…

Yeah i’m going to watch Concert on Saturday..Yippie!!!! Weekends are so precious but I have many weekends that I have to work…it doesn’t really matter anymore….weekday….weekends doesn’t makes any more difference.