When you look at a beggar, what do you see?

For most, its just money they wants, to feed themself. Though nowadays some have exploit the whole idea and there are even syndicate, apparently. But lets just stick to the very basic idea of begging.

Sometime if you think harder, we are no far better than them. Furthermore, we are all but human. The only difference is that, we see what they beg for….mostly money to feed themself.

But I think at one point in our life, we sort of beg for something, unconsciously. And it bothers us if we don’t get it. At least, I felt that way at one point in my life. But most of the time, the conscious begging I do is towards Allah in the form of silent prayers every single day, hours, minutes. Hoping that HE grants my noble wishes. Just kidding! I guess HE knows best what to give and not to give. Sometime, we felt why is HE not giving what we prayed for. But we do know HE got something better in the queue. HE does all the time. Its just a matter of time. And if we are patient enough, I guess the wait is always worthwhile. I’ve seen it happen before right under my nose. And for all the pain that I think I feel or have felt before, I guess HE makes me such a strong person not for nothing. It is to withstand it all. I could bend as far as possible, but HE will not make me brake. I have every bit of faith in HIM. HE is who I look for each time I faced a problem. I guess this time around, it is no different.

I heard this a lot, “Kesian Dee, asyik kena bully je” (TRANSLATES: “Poor Dee, always get bullied“). Well, I rather give way then ramp head-on. The way I see it, there are other things worth fighting for as compared to whatever it is the subject matter.  So why bother?

But because we are human. We feel and we need to heal ourself from the pain. Some ppl travel, some ppl confine themselves, some people cry their hearts out….no matter how you pray…u need to let the hormonal part still consume you. I think crying does helps. Travelling maybe, haven’t try that yet. Confine yourself and stay away from people. That’s just drive me nuts. I do take time alone though. Not sure if that considered confinement :)

I guess bottomline, be patient. That’s all. Coz if you are not, we might end up doing stupid things, regretable things….and idoitic things. So just be patient.

Ramai yang kata….Sabar itu separuh daripada Iman….well..mama pun kata..so mungkin ia benar….maka bersabarlah….