To conquer fear is the beginning of wisdom ~Bertrand Russell~

Since ytd it was all about eating out. I missed proper dinner. Coz my 8pm dinner was in the car, munching on a slice of Gardenia bread while Suzuki was getting a nice scrub at the car wash. I flipped through the manual and have jets of water sprayed at me, but of coz I’m in the car.

After my visit to gram’s (shall not elaborate, just saw not the best time for a visit), I was wondering whether should I go CCK for dinner at that garden restaurant but I tot neh…not exactly along the way. So I was pestering mum to decide for me just by answering a YES or NO right at the corner of where McDonald was. The minute she said YES, i signal left and barely few minutes I was parked and ready for supper. What do you know? Didn’t expect a simple quick supper could turn out into a nice hang out with …….Pak Lang and sis and mum. yes! Bump into my dear friend while I was out supper-ing. So we join forces and the McSardine Gang was formed Why McSardine? We ended up in McDonald, that’s the ‘Mc’ part, BECAUSE, big kids like me are really sick of Sardine as dishes. So there you have it, McSardine Coincidently, Pak Lang’s mum also cooked Sardine for dishes at home, so they also end up at McD. Same story like mine : )

It was one heck of a hilarious supper. Me and Pak Lang was actually hanging out with our mothers and his younger sis, but it was like hanging out with friends. I think we are the loudest there. But it was greattt time spent to end the hectic work week.

So Saturday started with Breakfast at KAP McD yet again with Zoo heheh…Then scrub the kitchen, nice and clean stove I got myself after hours of scrubbing. By the time I end, I was too hungry and the stove was too clean to even want to cook. Me and mum head to a nice Indon restaurant PAGI SORE for dinner. Priceless when you get good food and a great time with mum. And of the most important thing, and a new thing I did today was….I HAD MY FIRST TASTE OF SAMBAL BELACAN @ PAGI SORE. The conclusion: SAMBAL BELACAN IS GOOD!!!!! I tot tat thing stinks and doesn’t taste nice. I NEVER eat sambal belacan for as long as I have live. Yes I eat belacan after it gets all grinded with chilli but not sambal belacan. Now I know why Jude like to eat sambal belacan last time at Relax Cafe, and she still does until today. So more sambal belacan for me from today onwards.

A nice long day is almost over, and I’m going to lay on bed, turn on the VCD and start Box 9 of Cinta Fitri….ahhhh bliss…Gd nite everyone!!!

Which would you prefer stucked at work and not knowing when the vendor will solve the problem (happens today) OR stuck in a lift (happens yesterday)???

My workstation is being used to debug a mess that vendor did. And it must be up and running like nothing happen by tomorrow at 8am. SUCKS TO BE STUCK!!!!!

And there are just too many things that went wrong today….

1. Early morning already got into a not so nice situation with the neighbour
2. A friend had bird shit on her head at lunch
3. A friend’s granma is not well and got admitted to hospital
4. Plan with mum to visit paternal granma have to scrap after mum got all dressed up. I have to make her change and just go to bed.
5. And deployment is a mess thanks to the garbage data…just say only GARBAGE in GARBAGE out.

That’s about enough shit for today alone.  Dinner comes in the form of plain Khong Guan biscuits – 5 pieces and my appetite just shut itself. Usually I would call a cab soon after all this end. But I have to reserve a tiny bit of energy to drive myself home. Is tat good or bad? Thank God i’m like 15 minutes away from home only *yawn*

Ya Allah! Cepatkan la bagi diorang diorang ni huraikan masalah yg dorang buat tadi. Amin! Amin! Amin!

Kenapa dorang ni tak habis lagi….besok meeting pukul 9 with BIG BIG BIG boss….haizzz…..

*Sigh*

Got home fairly early, abt 7ish…close to 8. At the lift lobby, I was waiting for lift with this not-so-local-looking indian fella. As usual, my suspicion gets the better of me. So I created some sort of diversion by tearing my loads of letters that I just withdraw from the mailbox

So i walk AWAY from Lift C and thrash out the torn out envelope leaving the ah-neh to go up first via Lift C. The idea of being in the lift with that fella, dunno why I got 2nd thoughts. So I waited for yet another lift, i.e. LIFT A. This is one problematic lift of which the door open & close as it pleased and just won’t barge to the floor up. But me being me, forced it to shut by adding some force to it. It eventually went up..yes..it was like…”Wow not bad”…well guess what? ITS BAD…REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY BAD. Coz instead of bringing me up to 12th floor. It brought me up to 11 & A HALF FLOOR only with the wall facing me. NO EXIT! PANIC ATTACK! Even the ventilation went off…..my hp got no reception…that is as good as no call for help. Fortunately for me, the lift lights didn’t go off. I possibly or rather, surely, could have fainted right there. But right after all that commotion, it come on by itself. The ventilation and the lift starts to climb another half floor up so 11.5 + 0.5 = 12…..hahaha…funny? Not when you are inside the lift like me yesterday, its NOT!

Once I’m safely home, i alerted everyone on my floor to avoid LIFT A….My problems with lifts…not the first time….I’ve got worse experience….like the lift door open with BRICK WALL staring back at me……i had no idea if i’m on the lowest or highest floor….Can’t tell much from the cemented brick wall facing me at that moment

Should stay at 1st floor ah next time……

Moral of the story….? Don’t take lift A or lift C…take the stairs… hahaha….12th floor, take stairs…ehmm…maybe when blackout lah…hahahahah

And there we have it, one Saturday, I was doing the laundry, scrubbing, washing, cleaning….

One weel later, I was at the driving range..yet again….Last time I was doing it, waaaaayyyy back in Bintan..many years ago…

Cik Jojo was coaching me….Fara was done even before I was…total 3 baskets of 30 balls Lumayan!!!

And now back to my usual work week, wake up late, reach office late….go home late…sleep late….and the cycle goes on and on and on….till Friday night..when it takes a turn…FORGET WORK! Enjoy LIFE!

Remember there was once i put up this….couple of things are already striked out and other cancel..and 1 pending….*is this what you call progress or what?*

1. Suzuki SX4 
2. HTC phone with WIFI
3. iPod iTouch  *can forget abt this one already, not interested*
4. Upgrade my connection at home to a wireless *only in Sept*

After years of getting my driving license, many many $$$ spent on renting from ORIX and wherever it may be….the 1 year plan with NTUC car sharing…using my bro’s Jazz, I finally get my own….yes…my very own SUZUKI SX4 Hatchback….in Pearl White…..And of coz the HTC Touch comes in matching White just like the car.

So the car has been ferry-ing my Mama, grandparents, aunt, uncle, golf lessons with cousin Fara & family, then chilling out with Hawa and Linda. And more makan session with Abg Jali, Kak Rahimah..and their kids….Basically been bz with markets and grocery shopping. I have yet to spent time alone with my new found love, Maybe soon honey…wkakaka…. Tgh kemaruk gitu lah. And I kinda miss the Yellow Baby now…that’s Honda Jazz……….And of coz…my dad have yet to take a ride. Next week perhaps…my schedule with Papa always clash…and most morning..i’m already late for work *nothing new* to even offer him a ride. He’s doing great with his taxi ride. He said being driven is better than driving…so he said

Last week I gave Konsert Fenomena Anuar Zain & Ziana Zain a miss. Due to a more important family matter that need to be taken care off.  During a recent checkup, Dr Jamie discovered a new growth measuring abt 13mm, before it was 11mm. Coz of my mum’s medical history, we decided to have it removed for yet another round of biopsy. And today, after 1 week, I thank Almighty Allah s.w.t for his great blessing upon my mum for the growth is negative for cancer. I’m just Thankful, that’s all. Also to my friends upon their prayers for my mum’s smooth day surgery, for visiting my mum after the surgery. You all know who you are, and I thank you all for your concern towards me and my family. *HUGS*

Very happy today. Haven’t been bloggin much but i realize i’ve gotten a comment from one Cinta Fitri fan as well as on my topic abt love and falling in love. There is part 2, stay tuned!

I’m at work, Just stuffed myself with Curry Puff from Polar. And a can of Ice Lemon-T. Feeling lazy but still doing work, not now i mean, now i’m blogging. Duh!

OK gtg..later tonite ya….

Kadangkala, kita hanya perlu untuk….Berhenti Berharap ..seperti nyanyian Marcell…

 Dulu ku tak pernah
Percayakan cinta
Yang tak harus memiliki

Pernah ku paksakan
Walau tak sejalan
Meski ku tau ku salah

Dan ku coba melupakanmu
Karna ku tau kau bukan milikku

Reff:
Dan ku berhenti berharap
Akan cintamu yang dulu ada di hati
Dan ku coba ‘tuk bertahan
Walau berat kini ku berhenti berharap

Kini ku akui
Hatiku tak bisa
Slalu miliki dirimu

Pernah ku paksakan
Walau tak sejalan
Meskiku tau ku salah

Dan ku coba melupakanmu
Karna ku tau kau bukan milikku

Back to Reff: 3x

berharap

Dan ku coba ‘tuk bertahan

Yet another superb production…i just love all these men who can sing …

Why is it called ‘fall in love’?
My answer would be – because it is accidental

Why is tat so?

Because generally ppl say they FALL in love. The idea of FALL or FALLING is usually not intentional, right? You usually don’t know if u gonna fall until you do, then u felt the pain. Isn’t love the same? You realized it only when you begin to care abt someone too much, by then, it is too late. You already FELL IN LOVE..see I’m using past tense. At this point, you are feeling the pain – in case of love, you are feeling the joy *i hope u r*. If you are not, depending on how bad the fall, be prepared to nurse that pain.

Thank God I didn’t fall in love as often as I fall down. Becausssssseeee, I FALL down all the time, i really mean FALL down..ok ..literally, and 100% of the time, I’m sure I don’t actually choose to fall. Yes! Yes! I have issues with balancing myself and presence of one particular friend *u know who u are* also contributes to me falling down even more often.

So while i sat in office, stalled over which task I should complete first, it got me thinking abt falling in love.
 
So how do I further comprehend all this falling in love thoughts? I can’t because my language sucks and I might write something and mean something else.

Right now I just fall in love with myself…*is tat wrong?*…I guess not coz one have to love oneself before loving others. At least I think so, lately.

So there you have it, lil princess dee is suddenly talking all about Love. Its great to fall in love and be loved….until you start to argue and fight over the stupidest of things….well, tat sucks! hahah..

So at times, being single sure is a luxury for me. But at times, it ain’t tat great also. Nobody said its gonna be easy, nor fair. LIFE itself is hard, then come LOVE LIFE, the subject just gets harder and harder…and my grades in LOVE LIFE ain’t got no distinctions – YET.

I didn’t know having a headache could make me blog such topic, if I got amnesia, probably I could write other loads of craps..hahaha….

In a world of my own…

I’m afraid sometime, it is too good to be true …

Let’s wait and see…only time will tell…

I have to admit, I’m hooked to Cinta Fitri. There was one particular scene tat caught my attention during one of the episode. But I gave it a miss until recently. What I love most is the cute relationship between Farel (Teuku Wisnu) and Fitri (Shireen Sungkar). So lately, I’ve been going home early, b4 8pm to catch it. Then at 10.30pm, i’m bz tuning to SCTV for Cinta Fitri Season 2. But honestly, I prefer them before marriage, i.e. Season 1. Its kinda messy having to catch two season in parallel run coz I end up confusing myself of which trailer I watch for tmr. Season 1 is their courting days, Season 2 is their married life with the intrusive Oma (granma).

Having said tat, I’m gonna miss both runs tonight and tmr night coz i’m catching up on the movies. Narnia Prince Caspian courtesy of Judy’s friend who offered us 2 discounted tickets. Thanks Jude for paying And Indiana Jones tmr, well, now this is tricky. I’ll sort it out tmr.

Once in a whlie its nice to be home early for a change. I knocked off at 630pm. Flag a cab and was home at 6.50pm. CHill a bit, hit the shower and all freshen up by 7.30pm, while I flip through NewPaper to catch up on the current events. Not long, I had my dinner. And all done by 8pm, ready for Cinta Fitri. So it ended at 9pm. Spent few hours on the net. And having our own version of karaoke re-running Atas Nama Cinta with mama. My god! We both sucks at singing….Already we are planning for karaoke this weekend 1030pm was SCTV Cinta Fitri 2 till 11.30pm…After which I was on my way to dreamland.

All in all, for the $17 taxi fare I paid ytd to get home early, the moment at home is PRICELESS. Should do it more often…ehmm…maybe not….

I leave u all with this…