To conquer fear is the beginning of wisdom ~Bertrand Russell~

Paling Agung Teman Terulung
Tenunan Emas Sayap Hidupku
Tak Ingin Ku Undur Bertamu
Bertakhta Teguh
Ke Akhir Waktu

And Jude, specially for you, translated version from MrManager’s blog

Most High, Exalted Companion
A Royal Tapestry Woven Into My Humble Wings
I Desire To Remain Forever In Your Embrace
For You Are Enthroned Within
Till The End Of Time

It is a wonderful feeling that is just beyond words to know that I have really good friends who cares a whole lot. No, No, No. I’m not sad or anything like that, I just had a long chat with Jude and it was a good chat, meaningful ones which enforce the entire meaning of a True Friendship. And I have that! And I’m very happy and extremely glad for it! Friendship…

To all my friends, I LOVE U…ohhhhh soooo very much, and I have always appreciated and will continue to appreciate your presence that have or have not had any impact on me, thus far Maybe I never actually express it that much coz all of us don’t. And pls, for those shallow minded beings who only can think of boy-girl LOVE….grow up ok…There is so much love to go around and among them are family love, sibling love, and etc etc…but today I focus on Friendship kinda love….

Its not even Friendship Day, what had gotten into me ? hahaha…In any case you wanna know, Friendship Day is celebrate on the first Sunday of August, every year.

Wednesday, midweek - my schedule is JAM PACKED till year end. But I managed to somehow squeeze a six-days break starting Hari Raya Haji till Christmas. Thanks to the postponement of one of the task I had in hand. But then I might have to forgo going to the 3 weddings on the 3rd week of Dec. But that’s quite alright.

Such a wet day right now, outside is pouring. My initial plan was to head home after work to finish something but doesn’t look like its gonna happen as I’m meeting my dear fren who is supposedly to be on leave. She just can’t sit tight at home. She’s somewhere in AMK now caught in the heavy rain. So my dear, just keep yourself busy and I’ll come rescue you with the 2 PRINCEs later at dinner time But we ain’t coming with horses and carriage ok…Just us on foot.hehehe…

10 Tracks of anuar zain latest songs are looping again and again on my Ipod. I’m wide awake despite only falling asleep at 345am this morning. Not bad at all!

So I’ve got dental appt, spa appt, and kenduri to attend over this weekend. Overall, its really been a bz month, and also a bz year for me. And I’m only a single woman with not tat many commitment, but enough to keep me on my toes.

How would it be IF I have the exact same amount of work load but being married with *imagining*, let say 2 kids? I think it would be hell. But then again….could be heaven also. I’ll never know until later later ya….Ehmm..so in the lovey dovey mood. aahhaha….wat is the matter with me? Must be the weather ya….

Woops! Lightning! Lightning! Thunder! Thunder! Very very wet windows…..anuar zain in the airwave….singing Lelaki Ini…oh my…..perfect!

There goes yet another busy weekend. Busy is the word that used most this year! Due to that I didn’t get to blog at home, I am blogging at work.

So how was it?

Let’s save all the details for some coffee session for those who are interested to know my weekend doings.

First up, Friday night, it was Beach Rd Sup Tulang with the 4 cousins. But the night was cut short for 2 of them due to some unforeseen circumstances. So the other 2 plus me, proceed to watch Enchanted as we simply couldn’t find anything else to do. How boring was that???!!! But then again, such fantasy romantic movie give a whole new meaning to one day finding Prince Charming aka my other half aka boyfren…etc etc…or whatever other synonyms that one may have. Infact the topic about me finding Mr Right was still being discussed over dinner yesterday night among us close friends. Trust me, my dearest and most concerned friends, I’m very much looking forward to finding my other half and also having you all around to witness my wedding. And I’ll make sure I wear the highest/tallest high heels the bridal company can offer and try NOT TO FALL DOWN of course. But if that doesn’t work, flip-flop would do just fine J Tat alone can make up an entire joke book or maybe guidebook, titled “Dee’s Guide to wearing High Heels on Wedding Day”. Ain’t that wonderful? But all that have to wait till the actual day comes, right? In the meantime, I see what I can do about it J Hopefully I’m lucky next year 2008. Am I the Lucky One? Ehmmmmmmmmmmmmmm………………………

I was home around 1am and was in bed only at 2am on that early Saturday morning, have to be up by 630am at least. So that’s like max 5 hrs of sleep time. Why? That’s because I’ve got this Shining Stars Concert going on at the NUS University Cultural Centre. I know I’m going to be burned out at the end of Saturday, but it’s alright coz one thing for sure is that I enjoy doing it and its all for a good cause. But what I didn’t know was that, after 2 dry runs, 2 rehearsals, a few more de-briefing and briefing and the actual concert, we have been on our feet since 9am till 10.30pm. The rest that we got was very minimal especially us Production crew. We are the ones who will eventually either make or break the entire show for the night. We managed to hang in there, persevere and make sure that our tiny bit of energy will last us at least till the show ends. Of coz, my 13-year old runner on stage left was very much energetic coz he is half my age. But without him, I probably would have fainted on stage-left. But that’s just a bit of exaggeration. Ha! Ha! Ha! The day ended really well, despite feeling the aching everywhere. Me and Jude had McDonalds for supper before sharing a cab home. Jude was pretty much able to chit chat still while we were in the cab, whereas I was barely able to open my eyes. But it was a great day!!!!! Superb really! I enjoyed every bit of it and I can’t thank Jude enough for agreeing to join me. It’s a big deal and deserved a big THANK YOU because Jude was in the mid of her long leave. She actually takes time off to join me. JUDE, I APPRECIATE IT VERY MUCH!!!! Thanks buddy!

Then Sunday comes really fast, I basically fainted on my bed the minute I got home that Saturday night, woke up only at 11-ish. Got loads of missed calls coz I already got wedding to attend to that day. So woke up, freshen up and watched a bit of TV while having brunch. Thankfully I got the car so I get to pick up Pak Lang and Gee & family before we proceed to Zul’s house for his bersanding. The groom’s place was packed, barely got table for us. There was really got loads of guests. It’s the peak of the event coz everyone was awaiting the arrival of bride and groom. Zul and Maj looked fabulous on their wedding day. I love their Gold Songket. Really brings out the sparkle in the couple. We had our picture taken. And it was a pleasant surprise to see Abang Kevin and the Mrs there at the wedding. Wat a small world it was! J

And of coz, i saw there this guy who came with his partner. His side profile was sooooo like Anuar Zain. My gosh that sure is an eye-candy. *too bad no picture* This is the benefits of going for weddings. You see lots of good-looking guys  Why Anuar Zain? Because of the high cheek bone and jaw line. Front profile, nehhhhhhhhhhh! Not at all. Except the eye brow But still it sure is nice to look at ahahaha….that abt’s as much eye-candy. The rest no need to share lah oor..We left after spending quite a while there, got another wedding invites from Asrin and Lisa on 16 Dec. That makes 3 wedding invitations on that same day on top of work.

So we take a little quick drop off to change to our casual wear and leave baby Qistina with her grand-mama, while the mummy and daddy join me and Pak Lang for a spin around. We headed out to Changi Airport Terminal 3 Open House. Eventful indeed! We had a good tour of the place, McDonald as snacks and a free-show of someone fighting at mcCafe. Nothing much to tell over the disputes coz its in Mandarin and none of us can translate it. So we mind our own business and wrap it up. Somehow, my intake of food that day was somewhat an issue also. But do I really care? Not really. After that we drove back to West side for dinner at Mad Jack, Duke St. That place sucks in terms of getting a parking lot. I had to park infront of someone terraced house. Fortunately they went out else I would suggest other place for dinner. The place we longed for since 2 years ago. We barely could breathe after that dinner. We had our Tiramisu desserts to-go. Drop everybody off. I had to face with the massive mess at Pak Lang’s car park, which thankfully, I survived AGAIN!

What else been happening? Of late, I’ve been having this weird feeling in me, which I can’t seem to describe. It is some sort of happy, uncertain, odd feeling. I recalled having similar feel when I was in primary school when I was nine. I really don’t know how to describe it. I’ll try when I know how to do it. For now, I’ve got work and more work to do. But thing is, I’m not yet doing it. Really feeling lazy again! This is what usually happened on a Monday after lunch hour. And the rainy cool weather, isn’t doing much to help me in trying to stay not-lazy.

So much more to tell but that would just be too lengthy…so I shall stop here and TRY to get bz I’m going for an expensive spa visit very soon. I hope my aching thigh recovers by then. And BALI, I longed for a trip there also ..so many things to do…

I wouldn’t describe my mood to be at its best. Besides the fact that it is the time of the month where I get a little bit cranky, work is ever piling itself up.So the cramps were pretty bad since last night, even though I had a good sleep last night, it still did bothers me in the early part of the morning. Medical Leave is a No-No, coz no one is around to ‘jaga kedai’. So drop a lil SMS to the Lady Boss and get permission to come in late. I tot it could be over by 9 and be in office by 10. Oh boy was I wrong. I dozed off after popping 2 Panadols and only woke up at 11. Sprung out of bed and grab my bag and off to work in a cab, Yes I was already in office attire when I dozed off. By the time I reached office, the panadols were still in my system. I was still high on drugs (panadol, that is!!) The smell of the catered food that just came for our Thanksgiving Lunch was filling up the room. Basically I came just in time for lunch. And since then, I haven’t had much work done. As I’ve told my colleague, my presence in office today is just for show. I kept myself busy chatting, doing the simplest of all task, and playing with the phones and last but not least blogging. And there seems to be a lot of visitors today and I’m not in my very social mood. They said that they came just to say “HI!”. Crap! So I just act busy with my Ipod blasting in BOTH EARS, meaning to say “Buzz off people!” Aaahhhhhhhh….5pm only…………………………..  

The Sweet November month is getting sweeter and wetter, and it was pretty sour last week but that’s over. Moving forward there are so many birthdays and weddings, some I’ve missed, the rest are approaching.

So to my friends and loved ones born in November, here’s wishing you a very Happy Birthday either belated or an early one…

The lucky ones are Aznorzeeha (7^th), Linda (12^th), Rizuan aka Wan (19^th), Belle (22^nd).

And of coz those getting married and had extended their invitation to me and partner…ehmmm but for now, no partner YET J

To Zul Pendek (25^th)…I just realized the rest are in December like Cousin Ita and poly mate, Siti Hazlilah (16^th), my dearest sister Shanon on the 8^th of December (I still haven’t got a suitable dress for Shanon’s wedding dinner, Opps!!!), not forgetting Mohd Noh Iskandar also on the 8^th…almost all my December weekends are for either wedding or work….the 2 Ws. Yes!! I’ve got to work all the way to new year. Isn’t it a sweet November and a splendid December J You betcha!!!!

Couple of days back, while in bed watching tv, I saw this Indian Food-Documentary where they hunt for best Roti Prata in town. I’m not sure if I’m very hungry at that time or the pratas really looked delicious. Either way I was eager to TRY IT! But I didn’t catch the location nor any other details except that its called THE ROTI PRATA SHOP *DUH!*

So I’ve been wondering, and drooling thinking of the prata…it look so crispy when the host was sampling it. I can’t get it out of my head. Its haunting me. Well, God has HIS way of showing us things….so here’s what ACTUALLY happen today….*i’ve yet to taste it, but I think I’m close enough*

Today, I joined my boss for meeting at Thomson Plaza, it wasn’t scheduled. Once everything was done, i decided to take a stroll around coz I was there once or twice for a medical checkup abt 10 years ago. That place have changed sooooo much. So I went to get for Ryan a box of POLICE LEGO car and had my favourite YA KUN KAYA TOAST….tat outlet is huge, nice place to chill!!! But then I got this appt with a new fren at 6.45pm.. I then took a cab from Thomson Plaza taxi stand, upon boarding, the taxi drove off and made a U-TURN…..VOILA!!!! abt a few metres drive down Upper Thomson Road….I SAW THE BIG SIGN “THE ROTI PRATA SHOP”. I was SMILINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNGGG my way back to the west side in the cab ….i said to myself ….what a wonderful day hahaha..I FOUND IT!! I FOUND IT!!!I FOUND IT!!!I FOUND IT!!!

So if i am lucky this weekend, I might drag Jude there for supper after our event….I bet I’ll be very hungry at that hour *insya Allah* Ehmmmmm….yummy yummy yummy!!

ok now i wanna eat my dinner….and watch G&G S2!! Chaow….

 Day 1 of being a lonely loner. Why’s tat? One thing is my one and only team mate is not back. She’s still on MC but feeling much better. And normally I got my buddy with me for lunch and wat-nots. But she’s also away on 2 weeks leave. So there goes! Lone ranger mode.

Fortunately the team lead for the volunteer event this weekend called for a meeting at noon. So I get to ‘escape’ to have lunch with Pak Lang. Too bad, no fish soup this time around coz we sat at the Chicken Rice zone. So like it or not, EAT CHICKEN RICE ONLY!!!!! But tat’s alright coz I still get to sneak the Teh Tarik in. Very important coz Teh Tarik is a MUST-HAVE for me during lunch time!

So made my way to HQ and a tiny bit of incident of almost being run over by a huge BMW 7Series while picking up my $2 note that flew underneath the cab. But of coz, I did check my blind-spot, otherwise I wouldn’t be blogging this, would I?

The meeting went well, coz I’ve got experience running so many events back at our Polytechnic huge auditorium from Control Room to back stage …etc..etc…so me and Jude are pretty much doing the same thing. And the team lead said I could be in-charge of the entire back-stage. Usually it takes more than 2 person to run the backstage. But sadly, I think its just the 2 of us Jude.If we are lucky LP might get us another big boy. Cos he tot we ladies are the weak type who can’t carry the mic and mic stand :p he have no idea who we are!!! I carried loads of carpets once to offload it from the lorry to the booth. Strong enough? Should be lah ah…

So back to office in a cab after all those things and after my lunch. Got a lot of things cleared and a lot more waiting…

So basically I can function as 1-woman-show. Won’t die lah ah….last week was really crazy because I wasn’t in office. Being on a 5 day course, having to return to office when it end at 430pm…REALLY SUCKS! That made my blood boil almost everyday. But now that I’m back…phewwwww….it feels much better

There is more meeting this week. and of coz, on the side, I’ve gotten to know 2 more SG fans of Mr AZ yes! yes! I’m forever delighted when I get to know singaporean fans. Because somehow or rather I know there are loads of them, just that I didn’t know them YET!!! The more the merrier! They bought the polo-shirts which is pending delivery.

So now I’ve got yet another urgent Emergency Migration in progress. Once that’s done, i’m going to call it a day. Save some work for tomorrow.

But before I forgot to mention this, what i’m going through right now is a total contrast of what I did when I first join this company, abt the same time I started ranting here. Those days, in January 2007, I kept telling Jude this, “JUDE, I’M BORED TO TEARS”…becauseeeeeeeeeeee my boss who is equally new get to do all the work while i sit and get the leftovers from her when she can’t cope or when she need re-enforcement. That sucks! Now I get to do ALL THE WORK…where I LEARN ALL THE need to be learn stuff. Its no doubt tough..but sometime i just need it to be done the hard way, i.e. having it pushed down my throat. heheh… but so far, I learnt a lot and I really mean a lot. Things that I previously was clueless about, I already know coz if i don’t know…someone from somewhere will chase me till I find out..somehow….

So having friends got on leave/MC is sometime a good thing. I’m not saying i’m glad a fren fall sick ok..that’s just being cruel and mean. I pray she comes back to work healthy coz she’s well on her way to a new arrival of her baby number 2. So I pray for them both to be healthy. But from the look of it…i’ll have to burn more of the fuel and work hard before a break to Bali/Redang early next year.

Ok now back to the Inbox…loads to clear….taaaaaaa for now….

OK i got this outstanding item due today and I can’t just get on with it. I was doing it till 3am earlier on, until I couldn’t take it anymore. I hate having it pending, yet I have been procrastinating.

I was determined to make full use of my weekend, partly to get it done and over with. Hence, the early start to the day despite the late nights.

Slept at 3am, woke up around 8+, head for the pool with cuz Eve. Had a couple of swim and dipping in the pool till I realized I’m already getting a tiny bit darker. We then head for the shower and had mcD hotcakes with sausage for breakfast. Went to Giant Hypermart to shop for some ingredients for making the honey cornflakes, then we took a stroll back home. It abt 10minutes walk away from my flat. By the time we have all that done, its only 11.30am and I told Eve, it sure feels good to be doing so many things on a Saturday morning, as compared to the usual late morning where I woke up only after the sun is above the head

I’ve cancelled the M.Lancer that I booked for a short spin around as I’ve changed my plans, and that I wanna stay put at home. So now, I still am DETERMINED as I was, to finish that tiny bit of work left. I do not plan to attend the wedding that ma and bro is going to. Save it for next week! Got a fren getting married next Sunday.

So this weekend will be for me, myself and I.

That’s it for now! Taaaaaa………

i’m dead tired! I got a cab home around 7ish…close to 8pm. Planning to head straight for shower, have a bit of dinner then lay in bed so I could doze of. As planned?

Planning SUCKS!!!!!

Boss called chasing me for the Appraisal papers, both online and offline. Yeah! So here I am vending my frustration. My eyes are getting really tired and hot..i mean hot as in watery already.

And the broadband connection was giving a bit of a problem initially.

Now i just need to get on with hit, and target to have it all done by 11pm.MAx!!! Then like it or not I am going to bed.

Had so much fun in KL? yes I did.

Had so much fun returning to work? HELLLLL NOOOOO!!!

I’ve barely get to breathe easy since …..ehmmm…since I was half way back from KL. Boss started calling on Saturday while I was at Pagoh stopover. Team mate got hospitalized and I’m suppose to follow up with her stuff on top of the plateful that I already have waiting for me.

So ok fine…i expected it to be like what it is. But honestly, its physically DRAINING. This course I’m at should end by mid day Friday and I pray hard I get to go home and SLEEP throughout my extended weekends. D&D is cancelled due to some ridiculous reason which is not worth elaborating. I hope things slow down come next Monday onwards.

Now I’m waiting for Jude to finish her Module 10 i.e. Accessing Data with Microsoft ADO.NET….ekk…oops wait! she just gave up and wants to continue tomorrow…

ok i’m outta here.