To conquer fear is the beginning of wisdom ~Bertrand Russell~

The weekend is back! Yet again, in a zap!Bz bz bz weekend yet again! But i’m in no mood to outline my ‘to-do-list’ for the weekend. So i’ll just get on with it starting with some agenda tonight. And i got 2 more CDs to deliver or probably I should make them collect. Ah..not easy being a part-time sales-woman ya’ll.

My chain of drama series is about to start in half hour or so. Here I am busy clearing my Lotus Notes email as I get myself connected remotely to the office network. I find that I’m at peace doing work at home, rather than doing work in the office except when Papa start vacuuming the sofa at this time of the day (its 10.30PM mind you). I am a self-proclaimed quiet worker. Just give me the tasks, let me do my thing. Rest assured I’ll get it done. I hate people poking around asking me status every few SECONDS..BUZZ off.. I can stay up all night doing work but I’d rather not coz I plan to be up early and in office early as well. Its really serene having Anuar Zain’s songs soothing my STRESSED OUT mind while I attempt to clear the backlogs. Yes, its real soothing I tell ya’.

Yes! The doctor officially announced I’m stressed. But he can’t be sure if my stress is caused by ME or by others around me. That’s the reason I’m getting tension headache…throbbing headache. So today, I made a visit to the clinic. Had a little chit-chat with Dr Tan. Had a few things clarified abt the odd ‘Red Flag’ cycle. But he said there is nothing to worry about. Everything looks or rather, seems normal. That being said, I carry on the days running errands and drove all over. From Clementi to Thomson Rd to Orchard Rd to Jurong and finally home sweet home. I managed to find my way without much trouble, a lil bit of help from Street Directory of coz. But other than that, I did good. At least my MC didn’t go to waste, as I usually would ’satay-ed’ myself in bed.

I’ve got back to organizing dinners-cum-iftar for family and friends.  Tomorrow will be at Marina. Meeting up with poly mates. And also meeting dear sista AZ for the 2nd time only since she got back from KL. And yeah, we’ve got yet another Monashians graduate from the KL campus. Congratulations for that Gee! its overdue  But everybody is busy, this is as good as it gets. Then come Saturday, ‘Bone-Steak’ again at Cik Norma’s. But too bad that another family couldn’t join coz they’ve got prior engagement at yet another cousin’s place. Its Ramadhan as we know it. Everyone takes the extra effort to gather and dine together. And also to perform ‘jemaah terawih’. I haven’t been keeping up with my Ramadhan resolution thus far. And I ain’t so proud abt the whole thing myself. then probably I might invite the extended bigger family for Steamboat a’la maison. How bout sunday cuzins? Should we keep it to strictly cousins or parents included ? hehhe…* so bad of me to exclude the parents* wakakaka

Alright time for snuggle buggle in bedssssss to Zzzzzzzzzz…i guess i better forget abt the dramassss else tomorrow i can’t focus yet again.

Ta!Ta! Gd nite! Don’t dream ok…Dr Tan said, if you dream at night, means you haven’t got urself a good sleep.

I really want to just take a long leave and switch off. I used to say this new job of mine is ‘honeymoon period’ all the time. Oh boy was I wrong! So very wrong! Probably that’s why I’m easily agitated and pissed recently. Though I’m thankful its holy month of Ramadhan where one is supposed to be more patient, more holy, etc…etc…etc. Things at works are truly piling up. Once it was even a joke told over dinner, whether I was at work bz or trying to be bz …or just acting as if I’m bz. To all tat ‘bone-steak’ friends, I’m finally, truly, extremely busy with work. Yes! Seriously! That’s big news! So why am I complaining?

Probably coz for once, I was getting comfortable with things at work, people at work, immediate boss, and all those people I need to co-exist with. There are demands from immediate boss that I support all critical jobs during the weekends. I’ve been receiving support calls on my mobile even on a working day when I’m on the way to office. Even though the Coy. Pay $50 of my phone bill but that serves a different purpose. Fortunately, incoming calls are free. I even get a notebook that can do all things I can in office but at home. So you see all the perks. Phone bill support, notebook. The downside is, on those ACTIVE support times, my weekends are DISTURBED. For those who knew me well, and long enough, I’m so very busy at weekends. I run errands, not just mine. It’s the entire BIG family’s errands. During such weekend, having to support production jobs really mean sitting at home and waiting for calls. Well I could wish that I got a notebook that’s wireless but that wish have yet to come true. So I’m desk-bounded due to the network cable that requires the internet connection. Then on top of tat, I’ve been getting loads of projects, small little development of system to help make things work better in the office. I’m happy to do it. At least, now I am. Basically, despite my everyday ‘sleepyness’ and ‘lazyness’, I was getting really comfortable.

But everything changes just a few days ago. The immediate boss decides to leave for a better offer. First reaction was plain blank. Then comes the WHAT???!!! All I could think of was you started all sorts of initiatives or maybe didn’t start some but supported them, which means I have to be the one doing it…but if you leave, then what happen? I tot ok…easy way out was…quit lor. But that’s a cowards approach, aite?

She’s glad though that I said I was getting comfortable with things. But I’m worried as to who the next person gonna be. Is it gonna be someone not so strict like her? Or fierce? Or can’t be bothered? I’ll be damned. And here’s the icing to it all, by the time the new boss arrive, my another team mate will be on maternity leave. That’s left with 2 newbie…well I would be 1 year old by then but still unfamiliar with all this jargons. I think hell will eventually break loose sometime early next year when we have two ‘freshies’ running the team. Ya Allah, please give me strength to overcome the challenges that I foresee is coming. Amin!

So her last day is eve of Hari Raya, still deciding to attend or more like I can’t attend the farewell dinner. But I can always meet her off-duty if I want. I have tat one big worry and many mini-worries. But I’m trying to forget them all tonight by having a nice dinner-cum-breakfast at a nice Thai restaurant with my 3 buddies. And probably hang out a little coz I’m about to break already. I don’t quite remember when I last hangout with Jude. And I kinda miss those chit-chat….So tonight will make up for lost time ya Jude. 1 more hour ….till next time….

I’m feeling oooohh-soooo-SICK! Sickening kinda SICK!
I’m mentally drained after the DR and endless Gdrive housekeeping meetinggggggggssss…this work week had really squeezed out the brain juice out of me!

To top it all up, immediate boss is leaving. And there is a handful to take over from her and then split with another team mate, while waiting for the next boss to step in. And of all day or night to have farewell dinner, it has to be eve of hari raya! I possibly might not attend. We’ll see abt tat.

And more to come….

Weekend have to stay home and face the freaking notebook to monitor jobs. Ain’t tat wonderful!

I’ve already planned my leave till year end. After all that planning, I’ll still be having a handful of 2007’s leave balance that will be brought forward to next year for my one week holiday. Let’s see if I last in this new place for long..feeling the nauseousness already.

Andddddddddddddddd…..The stupid radio station is full of advertisement instead of songs!!

My…my…this is not a good thurday….

And of coz..something else that’s not even worth mentioning….*sigh*…

What Number Are You?

I’m getting rid of the stress by off-loading myself with all things that causes the stress!

One at a time…..more to go ..but I know I can do it!!!!!!

JUST DO IT!!!

Pretty much true! Like now I have not enough time…and I can imagine the schedule for this month is gonna be jammmmmmmm…major jam.

JD now tat we..yes u and me, gonna marinate ourself in work….Bali or Redang or wherever it maybe that we are going doens’t matter…as long as we run away from the town area..no more sky-skrapers and wat-nots…lets have the sun.. the sand..the sea…u ..me and probably get the guys to join us…and YY? YY wanna come? Haha…4got abt YY and Mr YY

I was suppose to write a review AZ latest album on my other blog. but i need time to sit and write a nice essay for it…got some pts in mind..but probably do it later tonite..

i got like 1001 thing in my head…ok gotta get ready for mum’s check up now…

taaaa….

Its a bad idea to stay awake after sahur (early morning makan). I end up falling asleep at 7am after staying up from after sahur. Then waking up at 7.45am due to fact that my entire block was swaying. Its the second quake effect of magnitude 8 or some reported 7.7

Now, i’m blogging coz i’m ohhhhhh sooooooooo sleepy…..

Tomorrow must wake up really early and then sleep then wake up again for work..lets see how tat works out.

 For now gettting bz already…

Its first day of Ramadhan today, where all Muslims begin their fasting. Here I am after my early morning meal. I decided not to go back to sleep. But instead keep myself bz with the NET. And so I blog.

Yesterday was quite a day, it started off really messy and teribbly bz. One tele-conference after another, arranging more meetings for next week. And trying to solve whatever problems that comes to the mailbox. So the day went on like so….till lunch time came…JD wasn’t around so I made plans for lunch with Mama and Abg. Had a quick tour of the new Seng Siong Supermarket…then went back to office while they continue grocery shopping. The day goes by as usual, productivity level starts decreasing towards the end of the day.

So I tot orite, we shall stay late today for work. Fact it, I came 1 hr late for work for staying up so late the previous nite. Around 7ish, while about to start a fresh task, i suddenly felt ‘giddy’. I tot its because I was indeed skipping my dinner. BUT NO!!! Its tremors caused by an 8.2 or 8.4 magnitude earthquake that strike Sumatra. The whiteboard was shaking vigourously. So did the glass door to the meeting room. NO joke! Coz there were still a handful of us around.  And we all felt it. So mr K surf the net to get the latest info. Oh boy, sure is…a big red dot somewhere on the map where Sumatra is. Looks like a tsunami alert was up and yup as of latest news, there was a slight tsunami reported close to Padang.

For that, I pack up and leave the office. And head on home. Expecting some ppl to come collect their CDs. Z was also abt to send more CDs to my place for the additional orders.

That’s about it ….enough shocks for the day.

Well…its finally 6am..good time to hit the shower. its gonna be a fresh start to the morning. And hopefully, for once, I will reach the office earlier than my boss did. So i can really leave at 6pm to break my fast at home on Day 1 of Ramadhan.

Till later…

Right now I’m very superly bz but just a tiny whinny bit CONFUSED.