To conquer fear is the beginning of wisdom ~Bertrand Russell~

Did I mentioned I placed my parents 14′inch tv in my room, Permanently! Yes I did that! I get to tune to Malaysia & Indonesia channels mainly coz I can only use either antenna. Or at most watch my VCDs again and again.
Currently on the repeat telecast (haha like cable always got repeat mah!) , its Gol & Gincu the movie, CINTA & SALON. What do they all have in common? Mohd Pierre Andre. He just a cool guy. Dunno how to describe, just Mr. Cool lah. I like his charm….he’s not super handsome. but he just gives me the tingle. hahaha….especially in Gol & Gincu the Series, which I”m gonna miss tonite because of SAMSONS. Well, somethings gotta give!

As for CINTA, i just run it but didn’t watch it. i only like the part when the song Perpisahan came on with Rashidi Ishak looking oh-so-down. My breaking pt = Seeing a guy cry! I know he’s juz FAKING IT. But still, i got feelings ya’ll. hahaha….So basically, i’m just wasting the electricity by turning on the TV, VCD, FAN but I’m actually having my shower. Probably I’m just excited with the new room arrangement…hopefully better Feng-Shui (if that really works). But i didn’t consult no fengshui master. Just me and my STANDARD ROOM arrangement. U tell me? How much different a room can look if its just a BOX shape. Seriously, think SQUARE shape.Honestly, I go to soo much trouble to dust the entire room, springclean, wateva u  may call it, but most significant of all is how the bed is position. U know why? ask me why? BECAUSE, it determines how much FREE SPACE i have left. So now, I have considerably big enough space.

Ok back to today’s happening, went to work wearing the slight unusual dresscode, (for me at least). I’m freezing here because ‘nak lawa punya pasal’. *beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder* so scram!and dun say a word! hahahaha
actually nothing fancy lah…just the jacket and shoe different. But even before i reach office, the shoe is already causing me much discomfort. Blisters at the big and tiny toes…BOTH FEETs. So i bought handyplas, paste where applicable. Till lunch time, it doesn’t help. I don’t even feel like walking for lunch. It’s like OUCH! OUCH! ALL THE WAY!!!
So what did lil’ princess dee did?

I TOOK A CAB AND GO HOME DURING LUNCH, EAT LUNCH AT HOME, CHANGE MY SHOES AND COME BACK TO WORK. ALL THAT WITHIN 1HR 14MIN 34SECS.

Why so precises? BECAUSE the minute i step out, i activated my STOPWATCH. so i overshot lunch by 14min 34secs. steady laj. how much does it cost me? Return Taxi Fare: $19 Lunch: Free (homefood) PAIN-FREE SHOES:PRICELESS! kihkihkih…

So here I am…counting down to knock off and grab a bus to HRC. abt 1 hrs more. I hardly listen to my MP3 nowadays. all i hear are phonecalls, drilling of the roadworks, keyboard, and in my head, i hear that song PERPISAHAN. reminded me of how AZ delivers that song in the movie CINTA. While driving last weekend, right after i drove off the carpark, RADIO ERA was playing that song. But Dad was talking talking…cannot hear the song at all…I was soaking in the mood u see…it was RAINING CATS AND DOGS….the u hear anuar goes…”KU mengerti…perpisahan ini..bukan kerana kau membenci…” Suddenly, i heard, “Adik nanti abik PAPA, tgk ni hujan lebat…mcm mana Papa dgn Mama nak balik lepas jemputan nanti…ha jauh betul tempat ni….blah blah blah” ….Potong steam betul lah!!!!  Orang tgk tangkap feel tu.

Then, right after I’m done dropping them off, i tot ok lah. I get change before running my errands, then i might just pick them up and drop them off at home again. They called me and say…’TAK PAYAH AMIK’. HOI!! Ingat limousine service ke? I wasn’t mad though…just wondering why they so fickle-minded. Betul pe!

Ok i’m done ranting for the day. SAMSONS here I come….for those who is clueless abt Perpisahan lyrics.See below…
Perpisahan – OST CINTA
by Anuar Zain

Ku mengerti perpisahan ini
Bukan kerana kau membenci
Tapi kasih yang pernah ku beri
Tiada lagi bersama

Sering kala aku, terlihatkan mu
Impian nan indah bersulam bahagia

Ku harungi hari demi hari
Bersama wajah tak mungkin akan kembali
Tapi hati masih tak terima
Ditinggalkan sengsara

Keraguan ini bukanlah padamu
Perasaan hati masih rindu
Kekalutan ini hanyalah untukku
Tercari-cari bayanganmu
Tak sanggup aku kehilangan
Kehilanganmu…
Masih tercari-cari…

Keraguan ini bukanlah padamu
Masih tercari-cari bayanganmu
Tak sanggup aku kehilanganmu

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Qoute Anuar Zain, “Perpisahan merupakan sebuah lagu yang mempunyai sebuah melodi yang indah. Senikatanya yang bermakna itu penuh dengan emosi. Ia amat bersesuaian dengan cerita Cinta itu sendiri.” – Utusan Online

I am all tired and its only January of the new year…wonder how i would feel in December. Ok tats a bit too much. Hehe! Lots of happening since the moody period. More or less, ‘the-air-is-clear’. So i’m a little at peace with myself for having clarified all that was previously not. Ok that aside, I’m tired because of my jammed packed weekend. It all started on Friday nite, drop by Hard Rock Cafe to grab my tics for ASEANROCKS featuring SAMSONS (a band from Indonesia). As far as i recalled, the only time i’ve been to HRC was ages ago with my dear fren, ReenaRichie. Last Friday was my second time there.Then there was the late night shopping whereby I got myself a new G2000 shirt/sweater *finally something tat fits from G2K*. Got my granma a FILA bag. The one i bought for mum caught her eyes. So there you have it. 3 generations who are fond of the same brand. Then I bought couple of toys from Toys ‘R’ Us for lil’ Raziq who turn 2 last week. So tats it for my shopping. JD bought her shoes from Taka. So basically its shop and shop. We had our dinner at AYAM PENYET RIA where I bump into …ehmm…how should i say it…a guy. ahahaha…yah! I met this guy during a mothers’ day High Tea in 2005 or was it 2006. It was a dare by my aunt for me to approach him and get a snapshot of myself and him. He look soooo like my old time fren,Z. I was initially turn-off by the idea of making the first move. Its not even to go for a date. Just a crazy stunt. But I tot, what the heck! why not? It wouldn’t kill me to do tat. Accompanied by my partner-in-crime ahahaha…*Thanks Ma!*, we go to the ladies BECAUSE that guy was smoking outside the the restroom area…hahaha…LAME, right?! I know! So mum stays in the ladies while I go out, as if I’m waiting for mum outside. *Can’t believe I did it,GOSH!* There you have it. Me and him and his fren. We exchange a smile or two. Then started talking. Then I said u SOOO LOOK Like my fren. But my fren was much thinner,THEN. Probably he think I’m saying ‘YOU R FAT’ aahah. But now i think they are EQUALS..hahhaahah….*sorry Z if u reading this* Anyway, so his fren help us to take a pic, which I still have it now. I was all tingling at tat time. Never did such stunt before. Haha..but Aunt was proud of me for being able to pull through. Not sure what her respond was, something like “see! won’t die-lah”….strangely, it does feels good. Thank God, though, I didn’t carry on and make it a hobby. Probably, I’d be attached if I continue doing so. U never know, knock on a hundred doors, maybe one might open and let me in You get what I mean. But at the end of the event, on my way out, he passed me his business card. He’s into wedding photgraphy/planner business. We chatted for a bit on the net, so does with his fren. But tat’s abt as far as it goes. He left the restaurant way b4 us. Coz me and JD was having a sumptuous meal. We then continue walking and eventually settled down at Royal Plaza Lounge for our usual cup of expensive tea. We are mainly paying for the place rather than the tea. But we work hard, so tat’s how JD and me spent our entertainment fund hhihih…. By the time we had our fair share of laughs and gossips what-nots, it pass midnight. We always say ‘SHARE A CAB’ but by tat time of the day. We are both eager to hit home without having to send anybody first. So we took 1 cab each and got home almost same time. Thanks to the CABBY for waiting for me to get into the lift since there is a suspicious looking guy at my void deck. And the cabby told me, the guys who just ride his cab right b4 me where the m’sia soccer team players. Ok lah.not much of a soccer fan. At least not anymore. So head on home, shower. a bit of internet till abt 2am and i re-charged myself. Saturday was ‘maintenance day’ ;p Sunday was party day. Chalet….BBQ….eat….walk by the beach..sit by the beach…freeze my A** of by the beach coz the breeze …maybe that is not even considered Breeze anymore….WIND is strong…and I’m chilled to the bone. I took Turtle’s jacket and continue to don it while I was BBQ-ing the food. Gosh it stinks after that.. but she’s nice enough to not order a laundry service. *Thank Cuz!* So we pack some food home. Exchanges hugs and kisses to the birthday boy..and off we go to drop grandma first before running a bit more errands and head on home to….RE-CHARGED for the new week. More gatherings and wedding this weekend…. ok i’m off to vivo again..yeah..this time for JD’s birthday dinner. This pants I’m wearing is tooooo tight already. So can’t eat much tonite. tat for now. Till I blog again….

I wanna blog…but i just ain’t in the best of my mood…so rather not…see ya next time kidozzzz

This is the kind of view I get on a nice day tat doesn’t rain. To think that its the wet season. Such view is a rarity so I took a few shots using my N70. 

As a packaged, I included the poem which I copied from my Aunt’s Kitchen deco so many many many….years ago. Reason being I found the crumpled piece of paper while i was springcleaning my dusty room. So here we go…a short and sweet poem…

FOR YESTERDAY….IS BUT A DREAM

AND TOMORROW …..IS ONLY A VISION

BUT TODAY….WE LIVE

MAKE YESTERDAY…A DREAM OF HAPPINESS

AND EVERY TOMORROW….A VISION OF HOPE

I’m not particularly sure what makes me so fascinated by the poem years ago that made me copy it down. But I did! And today, I blog it. So now I can thrash it since I’ve got it in my blog. 

And here’s how the paper look like….before it become HISTORY.

….my idol a.k.a Favourite Guy Singer lah….wat were u thinking huh!???

Finally managed to upload the picture…much easily using just WordPress…instead of the longwinded process….phewww….ok..shower time!

I figured I won’t be blogging tonite so I decided to do it now..which is my lunch hour. I’ll be out tonite. Going to my favourite new chillaz ..VIVOCITY. That mall is huge…with a whole range of eateries…..bookshop…fashion..sports…cafe…and of course the al-fresco dining facing Sentosa…and the waters of course…i just love the sea….yes I do! But too bad…i can’t swim I love anything with the seas…such as cruise, the beach, resorts….get the picture….i love bintan resorts…coz the end of the beach are horizons…Unlike in singapore, u either see the refinery pipes..or some ships/tankers way over there. The 2 cruise trips I made few  years ago are still fresh in my mind….love those!!!

Finally, i found a better way to churn out my 90k over records in just minutes, whereas the past few days I was faced with corrupted files and hours trying to generate those records…..Must be the blessing of a Friday!!! *watever lah huh* As long as it works!!!

I hope I survive the rest of the day to end my first week at work …new job tat is! JD is not around today. In a meeting probably whole day. I’m looking forward to the end of the day and finishing up my report.

Ehmm…gonna get new ‘gerobok’ tmr….bought tat with my last pay with previous company. Purposely spent on that…partly becoz i wanna see some physical and tangible that I’ve bought with my last paycheck from x-co. So tmr i’ll see it…then i’m going for yet another wedding.

What’s become of my idol web page….my files got corrupted in the old HD…now I’m just ooooo-soooo-lazy to re-do..probably I’ll make another attempt to save the content of my old h/d tmr night….now i’ve got a mission!!!!

ok…off i go now….

Finally I managed to execute a simple task at work without much hoo-haa. Mainly becoz they ain’t much help. My bosses ain’t around for this few days. So they help me remotely. AT lunch, JD said I am so task-oriented tat I bcome lost when i’m task-less.True! I go to work coz I want to do my work. I’m very worried when I start to idle. If at the end of the day, I achieve nothing at all. Not good!Not Good! JD said some more *eyes rolliing* that I don’t know how to enjoy the idle period. I’m so tuned to working every single minute. Previously, I chat at work…but still i’m doing work. MULTITASKING..yo!!! Just how many % is actually work and how many % is chat. That’s out of the question.Still a portion of work gets done.

For this few days I’m not fully utilized.And I’m blur as to what is my role. Probably coz its just the 1st week and I’m the over-excited, and over-demanding. Strange?!!! Why am I so eager to do work and ‘fight-fire’, so to speak.

Last night, wanted to blog but just too lazy and not quite in the mood. So now, since JD said I should enjoy a bit of my ‘honeymoon period’, I’m doing just tat by updating my blog. My BIG-BIG-BIG-BOSS, is right in front of me. I was introduced to him earlier today.He’s like the HEAD, I’m just a small fry…a blur one…a very-new-blur-small-fry….hehehe!

So now I’m sloooooowly doing my task while awaiting eagerly for knock-off time. well nothing to do..so why should I act bz, right? Precisely!!!

Wanted to blog abt the 2 siblings who sort of created a scene in the MRT ytd. To cut the story short, moral of that story was in this phrase, ‘THE ONE THAT CAN PROTECT YOU, CAN ALSO HURT YOU’. I’ll share tat soon enough..or probably not…depends if I can recall what happen….ahhahaha

ok weather getting gloomy already…i wanna finish my reports else if tmr is STORM…I won’t be able to clear it by Monday morning.

Chaow!!

hehe..lunch time almost over.My internet access is up and running but no chatting of course. But here is just a quick post…I shall pray hard it come true..then i can go to KL in 1/5 of the time..(now it took me at least 5 hrs by bus).

 Read on this article

Chao babes!!!

Day 1 – 15 January 2007

Today marks the day that I’m officially no longer a member of Planet Fitness. I was active only a couple of months…then i started to slag. Besides that, even a bigger news is I’m back to WORK….yes….work it is.

1 week of break and there I was at the the tall and proud Raffles Quay reporting for induction. Some sort like a mini-orientation of the company. Met the HR …listen to some talks…and I was told to report to site. Which I obediently follow without realizing I’ve got unfinished business there. So took a train down to site. Upon reaching the new office, I was intro to everyone…trying hard to get their names right. I just hope they don’t change seat coz I memorise their names by the seating arrangement. Like I always do   i think I got pretty much everyones name.

So i tot, its now time to get cracking. Like you know….do stuff…the real work stuff. I was so very mistaken. Because my login id slip wasn’t collected from HQ….sad to say no one collected for me. So a kind colleague told me….kindly…i have to go back to HQ….i was like…’Is this for real? or wat?’ I just was warming up my seat…in the ergonomic chair. So basically here is how it goes….

• 6.00- woke up
• 7.30 – off to HQ for induction
• 8.30 – reached HQ
• 9.00 – met HR to settle some paperwork
• 9.30 – get to meet new friends from other dept…induction kicks off
• 10.00 – end of induction & head to site office
• 10.30 – Reach site office..intro to new colleagues
• 11.00 – got the ‘good news’ to return to HQ..so i proceed
• 11.00 to 12.00 – at IT counter to collect ID and pass (which was not ready)….
• 12.00 – head back to HQ
• 12.30 – all i know its half a day gone with commuting via trains up and down the route. Not that I enjoy, I don’t have much of a choice.
• 12.30 – Lunch for an hour…
• 1.30 – look bz and very interested with work. interestingly I wasn’t doing much coz I got problem with the setups….

So read up a lot of scheduled jobs…ya I’m in IT line remember?

6.30 pm – knock off time….appreciate the ‘honeymoon’ period for new staff like me…wait till u are knee deep inside….leaving at 6.30pm would be a luxury I probably can’t afford But then again….we take it one day at a time …aba!!!!

Day 2 – 16 January 2007

Got a bit of work in hand. Familiarizing with the working environment. I don’t mean the surrounding…I’m refering to the systems that I’m going to be assigned with. A totally new tools and jargons….which I have yet to adopt. But ok….2 days only…can’t be too ambitious…

I’m very concern over my sleeping hours now…coz the office is ‘OPEN CONCEPT’ so if are so darn sleepy…the entire office can see your boggy face kihkihkih…ok 3 more minutes to 11pm…tats my bed time…so I can get 8 hrs of sleep..wake up @ 7 or earlier…and the cycle goes on…

 Thanks pal & cuz for dropping ur comment. Trust me….I’m not thinking much abt the boy-boy aka Prince Not So charming….coz i know, the more u look…the harder it is to find for now…work work work…and more work….and more jemputans….hahahaha

Linda, I’ll see on Saturday petang for yet another jemputan….can’t leave b3 coz i got ppl coming over my house…ok girl..pls tell mummy.* i hope linda reads this on time* hahaha

Good nite for now…

Yet another wedding it is. Friend of my big bro. Already knew them since years ago while in school. My frens tend to become my bro’s frens as we move from primary to secondary to tertiary. We kinda hand over each others friends So his fren, my fren & vice versa. So there I was at his friend’s wedding. I knew the gal not long ago as we had dinner once. Nice friendly gal…just like my bro’s friend. It was a wet though. Fortunately, the rain was just drizzling. Praying hard it doesn’t pour.And it DIDN’T..Thank God!

Ok what so special abt the wedding? My brother is the BEST MAN!!! Yeah! I was the bridesmaid for my best friend’s wedding. She on her way to have a baby in July. Hopefully it falls on the same day as my birthday…Then I can propose or rather….offer my good service as GOD-MOTHER hihihi Well, tats something I’ll share in due time ok….

Well abt my bro. He’s perspiring ohhhh soooo much….although he’s got a nice long sleeve RAOUL SHIRT courtesy of the groom. No matter how nice he look in anything…..he never fails to perspire really a lot. Thank you for the drizzle….it kinda cover up. So people might think its the rain kih kih kih…smart eh! Tats my bro. They’ve been friends since ….*counting..counting*….1993..how long is tat? 14 years….a good 14 Years……We usually don’t count those years….we just say….we go waaaaaaaaayyy back…

U know….the elders would say being a bestman/bridesmaid would mean….U R NEXT!!! But….doesn’t seem to be happening to me :( Wat’s taking so long? Probably cause I’m waiting for Prince Not-So-Charming to swoop me off my feet…..Will tat ever happen? Maybe in time to come. Pay attention now! I said Not-So-Charming….can’t be choosey for now…ahahhha since statistics said there ain’t enough men in the world for the all the women..But then again, no reason for men to PURPOSELY get more than 1 ya…And it doesn’t mean we just grab anything that passes….chill it….choices may not be much….but ought to get a good one. At least a decent one….ok! ok!…*being choosy already*

I’m blabbering….ranting …..not so smoothly as I hop from topic to topic…aimlessly….

Having nightmares over the new job.Going to start tomorrow….Report for induction….then off to the new office…nearer to home. Just praying hard I don’t have to burn the midnite oil the first few week…else i’m a gon-er man….

*praying* *praying* *praying* *praying* *praying* *praying*…pray together now….

ok gonna catch the Sunday movie now…’Day after Tomorrow’ …hahha…wat a topic….tmr is a big day for me….I shall post again, day after tomorrow to update ya on the my day at the new office.

Chaow now….Love you all….