Looking back at my Ramadhan 1430H pledges, here’s a re-cap.
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I must do my best to perform my Solat Fardhu 5 times a day without slacking, from this Ramadhan onwards. (I had been slacking at times, have to admit lorr) - checked
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I must do my best to achieve at least 5 nights of terawih (being realistic here ok, I could do more if time permits). I didn’t get even one last year, which is BAD.- checked, sort of
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Do more charity, which comes in many form, not just by dropping money in the box eh.- checked
Alhamdullillah, it was a special Ramadhan personally for me unlike any other. I kept saying it to everybody because this year it is so significant for me.
Syawal, so far, is also different. Special this year. Each time I seek forgiveness, I felt this ’sayu’ (very very sad) feeling inside of me but ALWAYS try very much not to shed any tears. The words that my mum’s friend said, touched my heart so much, my eyes got teary but I wanna be tough. So I just bow my head low and blink crazily to flush it away. I just cried at home watching the news when they show the visuals of the earthquake victims in Sumatra. God helps them. Especially so, when you got a whole lot of audience watching. We’ve been like a family. She’s been like a mother to me. We’ve had fun together, holiday together, sadness together, eat together. We’ve gone through loads together and I was so welcomed in the family. Feels good to have more than one brothers and sisters. Well I’m the only daughter and I only got one brother. Now I gained another sister and soon a niece due to see the world in Nov. You only realized how much you have when you sit and ponder, after such a touching moment. Oh how grateful I am to HIM.
Feels great to have such a big family. My family is big enough and I’m always thankful for the happiness within in. Despite some glitches, but that’s normal in family life. We are far from perfect but we sure are perfect for each other. And I learnt tolerance is important in a family life.
How can I not be greatful for the blessing that ALLAH s.w.t has bestowed upon me. I’m eternally greatful to HIM for the family that I was born into, a family that I was welcomed into, the quality of friendship I have with my friends I’ve known for many years, and some are newly made, of coz. They have made me who I am today. I’m so grateful to all my friends for being there for me. How this Syawal made me realized my life is far from stale. Its such a blessed one!! Alhamdullillah….
Insya Allah, we shall grow together in good times and bad times. May we always be under his umbrella of protection and may HE always show us the light to HIS way so we have all that we need in life and in death. Ameen! Insya Allah…..
You only realized it when you sit and reflect on your life…
